♥ BoNa FiDeS

无怪他人。

2012-02-11T16:58:00.001+08:00

至：你。
1想说：不要以为全世界得罪了你。

想说：不要认为只有别人在犯错。你何尝不是一样？

事隔相久。忘？不了？

你责怪人，你得到了你想要的东西后。

到头来，你还不是一样犯了同样一个错吗？

试问，你还有权利来要求别人的道歉？

而你，一句道歉也没有。

这是因为你觉得你没有错。

固执，该不了？
你还没长大吧。

或许你没有要求道歉，可是，你渴望的是，别人的赞同。

不是吗？不要否认。

只想说，怪人？先怪自己。

有些时间想想，为何这一切会发生。

为什么？

2012-02-09T03:39:00.000+08:00

3.20 凌晨。

头脑还很清晰。不明为什么半夜凌晨的脑袋特别清晰。

刚看完《天天好天》，快一年了。去年的18号看这部戏。

今天9号，还有9天就整整一年。

很快吧？

只不过一年，故事的情节很多都忘了。

下午就突然想看，本来打算和爸妈一起看，可是，他们还是睡了。

自己一个人看吧。

看到哪里，就会想到那时的我。

看着看着，我笑了。那时候的我们也是笑的。

看着看着，我哭了。那时候的我也是哭着的。

感觉很熟悉，很接近。

我想到了我们，我想到了阿公，我竟然又哭了。

今晚，哭了2次。

和 YS 聊起了他，哭了。

为什么就是还会哭？哭过就好了，不是？

感觉很不好受，可是却在安慰他人。

米粉你很可怜。

为什么电影的情节可以那么容易忘记。

为什么偏偏生活里的情节却不能？

《我知女人心》，我们最后一套电影。

一部没有看完的电影。

现在，我却想把它看完。

还有很多很多。 :'(

也许，

夜晚比较容易让人感触。
也许，
一切只不过是短暂的记忆。
会过去的 :')
原谅她人，等于原谅自己。
可是，我还很在乎。
为什么到头来，感觉好像只有我错？
他和她难道就没有？
告诉自己：算了吧。过去了。
可是，心的刺，最近插回去了。

Smart.

2012-02-08T00:24:00.000+08:00

Chat with CuiCui .

SaD that she's not in Dpp BSN anymore :'(

Which mean I gonna have a new roommate :(((

Chat with her quite lot .

Used to chat with her in real face wey :S *When are we gonna sleep and bath together again?*

Well , I got a strong illusion like : Be smart .

Be smart in everything .

Don't be silly anymore please .

You deserve better . Okie I got it .

花痴！

2012-02-04T02:27:00.000+08:00

距离情人节还有10天。

但不关我事了吧 /.\

是在尝试感受一下那个气氛吗？

一直看别人婚姻的短片。

温馨的，很温暖的，开心的感觉。

我想说：我其实也是一个小女子丫。

有时候会很想要有一个很疼爱我的男朋友。

一个会弄我笑的男朋友。

一个细心的男朋友。一个可爱的。

一个浪漫的男朋友。

以前我都不会在乎浪不浪漫的，因为我觉得不实在。

可是想想，其实被浪漫的气氛感染了一下，心自然会变。

不是因为我善变，是因为我也是女的。

人家说，打从心笑出来的笑是最幸福的。

我时常看到一些很甜的文章，对话，短片，电影，甚至歌曲，我都会笑 :)

那我算是幸福的吗？

我，是很容易被满足的小女人。

外界的人都不是很明白我，我个人觉得。

我并不是什么大女人。

我更加不是那种会检查另一半的私人物品。*如无必要*

我不会花心。看起来，我却是？

我对感情很认真，很专一。

可是我认，还没开始的感情，我会有所保留，这是保护自己。

所以她们都会认为我是花女。

你们错了。认识真真的我吧。

可是我看，只有我的另一半才会觉悟，感受得到 :)

因为只有将来的他才会得到我完全的爱 :P

现在一个人也不赖不是？

一个人那又怎样？

情人节也只不过是一个节日。

不是在安慰自己，可是，毕竟，我习惯了。

问：为何喜欢一个人？

答：不是喜欢一个人，只不过，有时候，一个人的感觉也很不错。

不是喜欢一个人，只不过，我还没找到那个真真的一位。

不是我爱挑剔, 只不过，我不会拿我的感情当玩具。

遇到一个对的再点头。

不要怪我为何忽冷忽热，因为你给我的感觉时对时错。

原谅我吧！

要如果我随便接受一段所谓的恋情，我会后悔。

想必，和我调情的，也会后悔不是？

所以，好好答谢我没有玩弄你！

在说什么？ *(&**^&%^$@%$_*()*(&*

去年的花，还摆放在那。
没有丢。
不是因为还有意。

我念旧，但我是念那束花。

很漂亮。
所以我留。

LongTalk.

2012-02-03T01:45:00.000+08:00

Been long time didn't have a real talk with him - ZX .

Well , a familiar name which appeared in my blog before kinda often .

But why no more his name after a year ?

Was wondering if want to pick up the phone .

Obviously , I did .

He date me to have a meal this SUN .

Guess what , I rejected him again .

I feel like , yea I'm bad one .

Imagine , I had just out with him for once . The first time , and he hope it wasn't the last time .

Thousand times the had tried to date me out .

Millions times of I rejected him by giving sucks reason .

Sorry to say that , I'm not a good one .

He's the first one who had date me for sooo sooo sooo many times.

And he's the first guy who chase me for so many years .

Admit that , he was a good guy .

He was a guy I like very very much before .

But as my girls , they know why not anymore .

After the first outting , sorry . I lack of secure .

Asked not to wasting any time on me .

I know that , he's not the type I want. He was , but not anymore perhaps .

I regret that didn't hold your hand at the moment when we hanging out that time , He said .

Awww :'(

Another admit , He lost the chance .

Shall I give him another chance ?

A poor boy who I like before ?

Should I turn my head to the back ?

Should or Shouldn't ?

I can feel his loyalty .
I can feel his sincerely.

I can feel his heart no doubt .
Thanks for the sincere words .
It's not enough for me tho '.
What I need is secure , mature and caring .
But not only loving blinding .

对不起?

2012-02-02T02:42:00.000+08:00

这是我们第一次面对面摊出来谈, 不是吗？

我有很多疑问，可是我还是没有问到。

很好笑？

当事人的两位，竟然在讨论他？

没有再多的感觉了，真的。

可是，尴尬还是存在的。很正常吧？

我不敢说太多，怕说多错多，毕竟，也不管我的事了，不是吗？

感觉很难堪，为什么当初的我那么愚蠢？

很想哭，为什么我那么不成熟？

为什么我那么可怜？那么可悲？

为什么要我强颜欢笑？

她说，不敢再接受回他，就算还喜欢他。

因为，她不能忘记他曾经怪她，怪她我们不能在一次都是因为她的存在。

她感觉他在怪她。听起来来很委屈？

当初如果不是你的坚决，要不是因为你决定回去，为什么还要怪人？

为什么非要搞到我们都不好受？

为什么，最后是我自己一个人来面对一切烂摊？

你的不负责任，我每天都哭得不像人样。

不要因为你所谓的负责任而负责任。

不公平 :'(

男人的想法，我不理解。

她的这句话，我的心沉了。

我，安慰她。鼓励她接受回他。喜欢就去。

她说，她忘不了他做过的一切。

她是在指我，没有我，一切就不一样。

安慰她，可是，我不敢看她。

其实很想哭，那一时刻，真的。

明明很难受却在安慰她。

这样的场景，还是第一次。

面对一个曾经是你讨厌的女人。

面对一个曾经是你咒骂过的女人。

面对一个曾经是你最好的朋友，因为一个男人，我们变了。

说真的，我一直都希望，我们会摊出来好好谈。

今晚，谈了一些。

肯定的是，心不再动摇，可是，还是很难堪。

难堪的是，我突然不会面对她，就在那时刻。

现在，我在想，如果，如果以前你没有回来，我们会是怎样？

反正就是没有将来。不是吗？自己说的。

恩。

对不起，我还是说了。

我有做错吗？

可是为什么，从来我没有听过一句真心的对不起？

:'(

Met up with Girls !

2012-02-02T02:10:00.000+08:00

- 31/1/2012-

Last day of Jan , Met up with Pling and Jooann .

21st . Thanks for fetching Babe Pling :)

It was relax , warm and yea , I like the way we chat .

Jooann asked : What if one day we lost contact and nomore sitting chilling together next time ?

Awww :') Just appreciate the moment when we're still being together ?

This's what we call it friend , we still can chat like nobody when we're sticking together . Even a long time didn't meet up ? Relax my dear .

I love u both so much :')

Well , keep it up . Be strong my babe .

I can do it , sure same goes to you girls right ?

ILYG !

Low EQ .

2012-01-31T23:22:00.000+08:00

I hate people using the mode to talk to me .

I just don't know why . I hate it .

Dad used lappy for long times and IDK why this cause me moody .

Tell Johnson bout the berjayaTimesSquare news , but he was like not in situation .

Chated with Yong , but same goes to him , the one who never listen to me .

I was like , fuck off .

F.I.N.E

I will not so stupid anymore .

ComeOn . MYOB bitch :'(

Yeah , I have low EQ ! FUCK !

Lunar chinese new year .

2012-01-31T16:11:00.000+08:00

One week gone .
It's just happened a day pass . WTF why the time flies so darn fast during holiday but not during study time ? :'(

Like every year do , Visit dad's side grandpa's brother , grandpa house .
Reunion dinner together , movie together .

Well , we went to penang , the most enjoy moment I had during CNY .
All crazy kids and cousins <3
The cruise kinda bored tho' ><
But I still enjoy the time with them (;

Celebrating CNY like every year the same , but , Wai gong's not around us anymore .
The only different things is , we all straight headed to penang but didn't go to the house anymore.
Silent house :( Ambi- changed .

Anyway , I did enjoyed :D

18012012

2012-01-19T15:55:00.001+08:00

Guess what , I bump into him .

At connaught .

Frankly , I was shocked at first . I was like O.M.G ?

He was just stant in front of me .

We passing by .

He gave me a awkward smile either ?

I wanted to tell him that : I fucking hate you .

But what's for ?

No point right ? everything happens for a reason .

God gave me this experience , keep in mind .

No more childish =)

I think I throw him a sucks bitter smile ?

It's fucking awkward one . Don't wanna see his face more then one seconds . Shift my eye sight .

Had the very very very weird feelings .

But it vanished very fast also .

Good News right , it mean he's already NO STATUS in my life .

Fuck yaaaa ~~ !

He even looked at my mum .

Was wondering what's my mum's reaction if she saw him .

I had the feeling like slap him , honestly .

Not to say the word ' L.O.V.E ' , because I don't think he had .

Maybe he had , but not enough ?

Do you know , 18 of Jan is a special date for us ?

Yeah , it was a day to let us to say good bye .

Do you still remember that , I said : Today will be our last day to contact . We start at 18 , and I gonna stop it at 18 .

Fuck me that , I wasn't follow my promise but followed his .

18 , a short temporarily break .

18012012 , we met . Accidentally .

Huh , what's a joke ? What does it mean ?

Thinking back , it happened last year .

One year past sharply .

Sometimes , I hope I wouldn't know him ;

Sometimes , I never regret what I did ;

Sometimes , I hope I could back to the November and avoid the Dec happen ;

Sometimes , I treat it as a memory .

Last but not least . The very last . Fuck you !

Funny that we were so loving each other .
I always tell everyone that , It's okie not to be couple anymore , friend will do .
Come On , sporting .
But sorry , This time , I CAN'T DO IT .
It's funny when you'r scolding your ex- , who you love so much before .

Well , clarify that .
I hate him .
But I won't do anything stupid thing else .
Honestly .
I don't have any other feelings towards an EX.
Since it was my night mare .
Don't judge me if you don;t know the real story of me .
Cuz you all never know that , How suffer was I .

Just no idea why I texted her .
Just , I think he know my feelings ?
But I found it was sooo Epic that .
I was the bitch at first , but she consoled me still ?
Mifen , you're sucks !
But i treated her truthly .
Do you understand me ?

Quit .

2012-01-18T01:33:00.000+08:00

Bit of shocked when I know that news .

From his mouth .

Actually , I can guess . From the call , I can guess .

Cuz of I had the experience before ? My 6th sense ?

No idea why am I so smart that I can guess it out .

In the car , I heard what he said .

Know what . I strongly believe that , that's a girl inside the phone .

It bring me back to the feel .

Why am I have the strong feel like , I'm a bitch ?

Why am I have the strong feel like , I'm 3rd party again ?

Okay well , You did nothing mifen , come on . Stop it .

IDK how to react at the moment . Honestly , I fuck myself up .

Quit will do .

No way to let myself sink in such situation anymore .
Treat yourself nicely is just actually because U deserve better .

I HATE PEOPLE LIE TO ME !
FUCK !

Penang Trip

2012-01-18T01:24:00.001+08:00

Am home !

Well , IDK Why , I don't have the very hyper happy mood to go penang or to back home .

Guess , am neutral one . Like always . F you :(

Will upload more photo soon .

The night sing k , I shouted and sing like nobody .

I was high to the max , and was fulled of energy while they were in dying , LOL !

Rock the dancing night !

The Beer night . The 'Tao' night .

Nice food but vomited out

Credit to Calsberg . My very first time to get drunk ? Not so say drunk cuz I was still in situation .

Was just suffer , drank too much . Damnnn it ! It shouldn't happen wey =.=
Million thanks to Lim Tian Tat .
Thank for the take care :D

Long time didn't drink so much already .

High cuz of the game .

DARE GAME .

Fuck ya ! It was my very first time to play such crazy game either !

Kissing , licking ! Yucks but it's best to play .

Gonna play with the 93 gang if we have chance !

A wonderful full stop for the trip .

So smile ya !

FirstSem .

2012-01-14T03:59:00.000+08:00

第一学期，结束了！

说真的，并没有很很很开心的感觉。

呐喊不出。可能我已经用平常心去考试，没感觉了 :P

忙着收拾行李。没有啊咪在 :(

靠自己呗！

翠翠一直交待我上巴士要小心。

一个人要学会照顾自己。

要记得那好东西，不要遗留。

不要那么迟睡了。

骂了他一句 : 他妈的。

心里其实很感动。

每天一起冲凉，一起吃饭，一起睡觉。

忍着眼泪。多希望可以再同房。

Babi Johnson .

他说，没有想到刚才在礼堂里会是最后一次见我了。

如果，我没有再回来这个鬼地方。

如果，我换校了。

保持联络。我会的 :')

就这样，第一学期正式结束。

很快。

就要去槟城了。 :)

想吃很多很多。

可是，其实，心里就是想早回家。

我们知道，去的原因。希望不会后悔。也不会告诉他们任何人。心里知道。

林添达真的没去！

气死我了！

你王八蛋！！！！！！！！！！

:' (

Guilty .

2012-01-12T01:42:00.001+08:00

Yesterday night , he sent me a weird message , something like asking me to steady , nothing gonna change , steady and don't worry .

Curious to the max . And start , I felt unease .

Just now , he sent me :

aduh... yor xdapat jadi lebih dari kawan ma jadi kawan la ahahaha!!! remain sama

PATTERN U!

woi masih kawan x

I was about to shed :'(

I'm always the bitch !!!!!

I know he's upset , from his wall , is roommate , I think I know what's happening , I think I can guess .

He read my blog ?

Or he get my hint ?

I just sooo fucked up , such a bitch .

Feel like crying . Imma bitch .

Am always ditch people , I always don't know how to appreciate those who treat me nice one .

1st - ZX .

2nd -Yong .

She said : Something mean to be happen like this .

He act like nothing ?

I wanna say sorry so so so badly , but I din .

To avoid the awkward situation .

Sorry from my heart .

I'm seriously appreciate it , with my whole honest .

I cherish everything that you gave me , your support , and everything .
I'm steady , and U also :') ---- Koon Meng Fern

CallAtTheRightTime.

2012-01-10T02:37:00.001+08:00

Si Yao called me , Was hesitated if I want to answer .

I answered , I think I need someone to talk to .

I said : I'm unhappy actually :' (

I cried , Cry like nobody , Walked out from room .

To avoid wake Apple up .

Squated at the corner , start to cry non stop .

I'm serious very unhappy .

And I actually SAW !

Well , I'm considering to change uni .

Since I hate here , I hate Multimedia .

Last decision will do , soon .

感触。

2012-01-10T01:52:00.001+08:00

话说，剩 2 张纸。

今天的 Multimedia ，老师给的提示是准到不行。

很有信心地写，很快就出来。

她们一个个出来，所说的话，让我突然觉得，我的信心顿时被盖。

我做错了。原来，我遗留很多。

算了，开心我的自信，开心我昨晚很早睡。

说真的，这一次的考试，我并没有努力去奋斗。

惭愧又怎样？

我并不是什么优等的一等一好学生。

我 - 开心就好。

晚上，和那两个她看SHE的演唱会。

当她们唱：老婆时，想到了晓菁。

我们的主题曲。

看到她们3个抱着哭，我联想起我们3个。

一起睡觉，一起吃饭，什么都一起。

眼泪很自然地流下，她们没发现。 :')

杨先生从泰国回来了。

就知道他会买我汉堡包和那花水。

就，没什么话说了。

就，不知为什么。

就，这样地，在安哥店呆了许久。

算是在打发时间吗？我感觉是在逃避2个人的问题。

不再谈本身的故事给他听。

因为，我会减少误会。

回到来，和 Callie 聊。

她说，她已经原谅他。

我，还不能原谅那个他。

他彻底毁了我的人生，我的人生因为他而变了。

永远无法改变的事实。

我不再生气他，可是我永远都不会原谅他。

如果有一天，我遇见他。

我真的很想很想盖他一个巴掌。

心情已经很不好，林先生却又在 Ignore 我。

算了，当你心情不好的时候，什么都是假。

我不是王后，你有什么权利要别人听你说话？

眼泪竟然又流下。
他妈的。
我想回家了。
我想离开学校了。

Vblog !

2012-01-07T15:26:00.001+08:00

Well , I'am such a lazy one .

So Vblog will do .

:P
Oh okie . I look messy .
Bleak ! That's Me ahahahaahahhaha !

Till Then -
Study !
Girlsssss ! Wait me !

太阳！

2012-01-06T17:18:00.001+08:00

真的很喜欢新年风的感觉。

更喜欢新年的太阳！
Sunny max !

他很好。

2012-01-06T14:26:00.002+08:00

感觉他好象豁出去了。

以前的他都是比较收检。

这一个月来，这几个礼拜，这几天，他用词放荡了。

' 你在我心里有一定的地位。'

其实我都知道，可是我都在兜。

他很无奈，恨无助的语气和我说，为什么我每次都不信。

想，一个那么害羞的男生。

他都豁出去了。

可是，我不在动摇。

有的只是同情，同情可怜的他，找到那么糟糕的我。

可怜他不久后，我们可能就会变得很陌生。

我不是好人。

说实在的，他真的对我很好很好。

在这里，对我最好的应该是他吧？

他会为我撑伞。

那天去吃饭，他突然叫我走慢一点。

他却走在太阳的方向为我遮太阳。

从我认识他到现在，他一直都在为我遮。

他会打电话来，问我近况。

他会问我过得怎样，他都在等我的新闻。

他会打来，就只是叫我去吃饭。

因为他很怕我又胃痛。

他会打来为我加油打气。

可是我，却不领情。

有时候，我就是很冷淡地说几句。

我真的很坏。

如果我需要他的帮忙，他一定不会推我。

他还会特地买食物给我。

我感动。感动他对我那么好。

我很感激。

以前我一见到他，我一定会笑。

样子好笑，说话很幽默。

现在我不会了。

不想再给他什么希望。

希望越大，失望更大。

不是吗？

只是感觉不一样了。
我真的只想要保持原状。

他的逼逼于人让我有点吃不消。

无怪他人。这是我的问题。

他可以为了我，特地到槟城，只是为了要和我一起达巴士回家。

可是我拒绝了。

我不喜欢为什么他每次都那样妥协我？
而我什么都没有为他做过什么。

我竟然贱到觉得，他对我好是理所当然。
我很贱！
所以，我不停地在拒绝他的好意。

他说我变了。

听起来，坏人就是我。

可是我甘愿。

因为我的确是坏的。

这样做，我可能会觉得比较安心？
可是，他还是会不停的显殷勤。
很内疚。

他没有做错任何事情。

我知道他渴望我的鼓励和支持。

我能给的只有这一些了。

她们问我到底想怎样！
我知道她们都不能忍受我那样对他吧？
毕竟他真的很好很好。

对不起。
Time needed . I think you understand .
Sorry to make you show me the /.\ face .

C.N.Y ?

2012-01-05T15:13:00.000+08:00

I know it's kinda early to update about new year post .

Just , HELL MAN ! I can't wait !

My mummy even already plan to kill our CNY in PENANG !

What ? ~~Penang~~ AGAIN ?

Pro , Go after final , back home not more then 2 weeks then go again .

Ewww . but well , for sure I join ! It must be a very wonderful trip .

* Go penang almost every year tho' -.- *

Been waiting for it for sooo damn long you know .

I LOVE CHINESE NEW YEAR very very very very much .

I think same goes to everyone .

But there's a cryptic secret inside for me . A very meaningful one .

I never forget what had happen in Year 2007 or 2008 . * Blur with the year *

It carved deeply in my heart .

I love my family very much .

Now , if the matter come out again , I would fall just like that .

Not because I escape to face it , but I hope , million hope , it won't happen anymore .

Blessing , praying .

Am I that strong to other ? Frankly , I'm weak , am just like a tiny sandstone .

I would just disappear if you smack me down .

Opss..Please don't diverge in your speech KoonMifen ! Ahahahahahahahhhaahah !!

Well , there's so much fun during CNY .

Meet up with family membersss . Get the AngPao .

But , sad case , We can't get any ang pao from anyone . Cuz . We just lost our lovely grandpa .

Am craving for the food actually . The most .

You know I love night life .

CNY is the best best chance for me to stay up whole night !

How much I hope I can just sink myself in drunk , in happiness like forever !

Rock the nights and days !

I can feel the CNY wind LOL !

CNY wind ? yea , IDK how to explain but yes I can feel it .

It's coming .

Mi , Daddy . I miss you and I love you .

Because of you , I changed .

Because of you both , I felt the difference .

Because of my dearest lengzai lenglui Daddy Mummy , I GROW UP !

Here Life .

2012-01-05T14:46:00.000+08:00

It's been a long time I didn't spend my time in relax way .

Can you imagine how terrible my time table was ? It was freaking 'awesome' -.-

I am fucking lazy . No doubt .

Due to the off day , no exam for few days . It make me even more LAZY ! F !

Lots of cloths waiting me to wash it but am still here spending my time 'wisely' in net .

I just have the strong though like , Oh no , I can't waste my time on house chores .

Do you have the strong feel like slap me ?

Again , slept around 5-6am .

I know , bad habit . I think I gonna make rectifications in my schedule ... TRY !

Lim Tian Tat , someone help me to slap 9 him ?

OMFG , He said his hormone got problem yesterday .

Such a face to me . Again I don't like .

Oh okie , I 've no right to say I don't like right ? Please la , it's human's basic right .

Non-of your business . Trolled face .

OMG , I found that I serious have the sick . What sick ?

The control -freak ? LMAO !

Noooooo way LOL !

Slept in WenYih room . Was sooooooo hungry in the midnight !!!!! FML :(

Move to her room , just because I felt alone . Don't like .

She cook maggie mee ! Such a big bowl in front of me ! Take it ! LOL !

Think , My life . Such a bored and dull .

Maybe one day , I gonna shift out from here ?

Maybe , I'm not belongs to here right ?

Should I leave ?
Someone please say yes .

StayUpNight .

2012-01-03T01:58:00.000+08:00

FYI , Been sleep at 5-6am .

And fuck it . It became my habit .

All of them worried bout me .

Worried of my health . Well , appreciate seriously :)

No worries , I strong enough man . Just I'll try to arrange it back to normal schedule . Yeah NORMAL schedule.

Staying up night . Yea I just used to study in midnight . Silent mode . Always the best.

Met with DingYik and Gan Wei this noon .

First time meet with GanWei . Well . Frankly , He's talkative , nice but I don't really like him somehow . Due to his attitude .

I prefer talk to DingYik like always .

Serious long time x meet up with him and chill talk together .

OMG I MISS HIM . He was my best best friend when we were working together in Billion .

F.A.T.E bring us meet again .

No awkward but still the warm-ness .

I like to talk to him , Just like how I used to talk to him when we worked together .

Well , Having strong desire to finish up my Kenegaraan .

I think I already spoiled IS and HE paper .

Well , please catch up the pointer . Roger that !!!

Year 2011 / 2012

2012-01-02T05:52:00.000+08:00

Poor diary , been abandon you for so long .

Been busy for exam . Well , had no time to update . More to no mood frankly . =P

Since everyone had update their post with the new year stuff , well , am here now to write it all down .

Still remember that I was late to update my New Year post when I was in upper 6 .

No idea , just still so fresh in my mind :)

What I did during the very climax moment ?

What I did during the countdown moment ?

Where am I during the moment where everyone were crazing with it ?

Fuck it , I was in my room . Making tea for WenYih and myself .

Was just finished my IS final .

No doubt , I had lost my exam mood and IDK do the paper .

Not all of that but still okie one I think ? Yeah say yesh man .

Hanging with Holiday mood once I done my IS paper .

Just O.M.G . I didn't read for my HE at all .

Salute for me yea ahahahahhah !

I was like , huh ? come on , it's just a test ? Steady laaa .

Oh I'm changed :P

I was the 1st who walk out from HE exam class . (BK3)

Another salute again LOL !

Anyway , I DON'T CARE ! Na na na ~~~

Just , everything gone in year 2011 .

Reflash back . Year 2011 will be always keep in my mind .

A year which had happened A LOTSSSS of shit . but I appreciated . Cherish will do .

I don't expect much .

Just U know , I want everyone who around me live happily , healthy and safe .

For the selfish wish - I want to get a very very very charming result . Oh guess you're dreaming Mifen .

Less crap please .
O.K.A.Y
HappyNewYear everyone .
Let's start new journey .
JiaYiu PlayUp :')

Different .

2011-12-30T14:10:00.001+08:00

Xiao Mai's grandma passed away .

Consoled her . text her . Message her .

Her reply make me cry .

She make me think of Gong Gong :' (

Everytime I think of him , I can't stop my tears .

Just uncontrolable

Everytime I think , he can't celebrate CNY with us anymore .

Year 2012 . CNY is coming . The house become cold . Without his voice .

:'(

Please stop my tears .

Having hard breath .

I'm exhausted .

All burst out in once .

I'm stress , I'm collapse .

Stress of study . Yet I act like I'm just fucking okay ?

I can't forget the scene even it happened 4 months ago tho '.
Slap me :'<
ARGHHHHHHH !

Final ?!

2011-12-30T03:04:00.000+08:00

Final . This sat .
Well , am actually stress and nervous .
Please please bless me .

You know , there's someone I used to be chat with every night .
Am waiting you to sing the song . :P

Another 2 Christmas Present !

2011-12-28T04:46:00.000+08:00

Got the Tambun and piggy key chain from YongChunGuan .
What I know is , he take for me from Eon at the late night .
Just of these .
Thankssss :D
-From Penang one I guess ? -

I knew him .
I knew he would buy me .
Am I that smart ? LOL.
The keychain surprised me . When I open the plastic in room .
OH ! I found it !

I got this biscuit from Ttat Lim.
LOL I was laughing actually when he said he forgot to pass me biscuit.

FYI , I FORCED him to buy me something from his hometown before he back to UUM.
Awww I'm such a bad one .
Well , kinda surprise when he told he bought me the biscuit.

Gan dong xia !
Never expect he really buy for me .
Gam Xia lu ar Ling Tian Da .

This boy was being emo and stress I think ?
Less talk and his face , OMG .
Black like errrr...shit ? LOL !
No more that face please :(

P/S : I 'm not a good counselor, Always failed to coax people .
Am such a failure . Like always . Failed !

Christmas Present !

2011-12-26T14:05:00.000+08:00

First Christmas present - Yellow earphone !

No doubt that , I love yellow <3

Thanks the err...sorry IDK your name missy :P

Get the 2nd Christmas present from Lucas !

I was so surprise when he throw me a box !

It's your chrismas present .

Awww :') How sweet of you !

Love you bro ! Muackssss !

Ta-daaa ! A very cute keychain ! It's look funny and I'm loving it soooo much !

I named it Biggy as with it's big eye and head !

Know what's the reason he gave me this ?

1st point , eye big . He said my eye gonna be like Biggy since I sleep late everyday , rolled out LMAO !

2nd point , it can remind me to sleep early if I don't wan to get such eye like Biggy .

I sangat suka la nie ! Will keep it nice nice !

Wondering if I would received the 3rd present ? From ?

Christmas .

2011-12-26T03:25:00.000+08:00

Dear diary ,

Had a great christmas celebration with MM group .

It's no doubt that , it was great .

We hang out , had delicious lunch , bought present , wrap it , steamboat , exchange present , bottoms up with the sparkling .

It's an officially christmas celebration for me , yea no joke.

Was just out for drink and see fireworks in my hometown but never have any exchange section .

Well , I get a yellow earphone :D !!!!!

I satisfy with my present while some of other were not . LMAO !

I bought stocking + very nice cute phone accessory !

Lychee got it :) It costed only Rm 10 chun !

Great night with crazy sporting coursemate .

Sometimes I don't wanna leave this group , they're now more close to me .

But somehow , I've to leave one day soon if I have to .

深夜。

2011-12-24T03:40:00.000+08:00

今天的夜晚显得额外宁静。

多数的女孩都回家去了。

我家乡的女孩们也旅行去了。

外面可以听到很尖锐的动物叫声。

像是小鸟的声，还是小昆虫？

刷牙当的时候被吓了一下，什么声？

为何那么大声？震到我的耳膜。

有点不习惯因为少了不停的聊天。

这是习惯吧？

3.37am 。

有点晕混。

可是还想要继续温习。

并不是因为本人勤劳，是因为我都在浪费了很多的时间。

星期天，他们有小派对。

一天不用温习了吧？

赶快干完他！

Meteors or Sunrise ?

2011-12-23T17:08:00.001+08:00

First of all , HAPPY WINTER SOLSTICE everyone :)

This will be a long long long post as I wanted to jot down every single part of my story .

As I LIKE !

Well , guess what , IceCream suggested to go ChangLun for our MM Reunion dinner .

( It's especially for those who were pity staying in this fucking jungle )

I wanted to go kinda badly due to it's OUTING ! But , WenYih seems like don't want to join ?

So , I rejected them . * I won't abandon anyone hohoho *

But the plan changed , Got his message that he done his meeting .

#TtatLim, you name occur in my blog kinda often man !

FYI , He stayed just because of this stupid spring meeting , otherwise you wont see him staying in jungle !

Said to have dinner together at EON . But, change to ChangLun with their plan .

We waited the bus for so long . And we gave up to wait and gonna cure stomach with our the very first plan- EON .

Thanks god that , the bus came when we were about to cross by the street ! F.A.T.E.!

Sorry we were late , but Json,Edward and Tommy latest !

Its taste nice .
Like what they said, everything is nice since we seldom have chinese food right ?

*Phew* !

Waited the bus to back jungle for about 45 minutes ? Scolded by one insane bus uncle :(

Had gastric that time , so grr..Ignore will do . Since he's an old man right ? Forgiveable :P

Our next plan - METEORS !

Heard people said 23rd's 4.00am would appear meteors again !

We moved to SimeDarby's lake by 11.00pm .

We actually drank ! + snack food .

TtatLim , Grace , Rain , KoeiIk , IceCream , Tommy and Json .

We all being together . Lying on the stiff lime !

Hard tough , cold air , sacrifice our sleep , just wanted to watch the so-call meteors .

# Named it lil bear ? *

And , we get nothing ! except TtatLim . LIM TIAN TAT SAW IT !

The only one I think ? :( Okie , you're the lucky one .

Back around 7am . Was intend to see sunrise , cloud day I saw .

Bye we dismiss .

Bye LimTianTat ! Make me jealous 99 one .

Anyway , had a super nice day with them . I'm loving it .

Joyful , blissful , I can smell it .

妈妈，爸爸。我爱你们

2011-12-21T22:20:00.000+08:00

妈妈，对不起。

我是失败的女儿。

她的一通电话，我的眼泪更加不能停。

她问：谁欺负你。

我说没有，真的没有不是吗？

妈妈：你不想讲话？

。。。。

“ 那我就盖了咯。”

。。。。。

要盖之前 - “ 到底谁欺负你”

忍着眼泪说没事，功课压力而以。

真的，对不起。

不是我不想说，我真的不想让妈妈觉得我没用。

就算让妈妈误会说我不想和她说话，我都不愿让她来分担我的压力。

她，还是误会了。

我知道。

算了。

反正，我就是一个麻烦。

她，还是打来了:)
问：你好了吗？
我大笑！ #其实我在等你的电话拉妈妈！
：下次不要不出声了，我会担心。

感动@@
妈妈，我爱你。

可爱的爸爸想抢电话来听，妈妈给他挂了。
我很爱你们。

对不起，我还是没有说出口。

可是，你们知道的对不？

听到我笑，她说话也大声了一点。
哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈
我发神经！

靠自己。

2011-12-21T19:58:00.001+08:00

我不是大方的。

他的一句话。让我觉得很受伤。

# 强调，不是爱情。

或许他只不过是随口说说。

又或许，我素质真的不好。

真的很奇怪，我从来不会在意朋友怎么样踩我，我会说，朋友就是这样的。

可是，刚刚他的一句，很快地，我觉得对，我素质不好。
心情被打击。

我发现，我不再有信心。
我发现以前总是教导人家的我竟然被人教导回。
不是什么坏事，就，我便笨了。

我是在在意吗？
我只能够说：靠自己吧。
不要渴望别人了。
你在人家的眼里只不过是一个麻烦。
不要求人。
竟然人家不愿意教你，你为何还要求他？

我一定要靠好成绩。
以前连续2年考第一的米粉，绝对不能再颓废下去。
就这样。
靠自己。
明了。

Lucky Me .

2011-12-21T12:57:00.000+08:00

Morning people :)

Woke at 11.00 plus something . And Gosh ! I know Imma lazy bitch .

Got a message from MinHui . Asked if I can do my tut or not , if not , move to dkg4 now .

Opppss...Luckily I got a copy from Ttat :D !

I felt like am always lucky one . SERIOUSLY no doubt .

Every LAST minute sure got people pop up to save my life .

Cherish + Appreciate = ❤

But I did do for my own for sure .

Millions thankfull .

I became lazy and lazier , due to their help maybe ? Oh my fault !

Over rely on them . Especially him . Slap me .

I was always be the one who teach other before .

But now , people teach me back .

Awwww ! I became stupid right ? #Yes,you're right .

Sad case .

Few more days to go to year 2012 .

Time flies . Ask me what had I learnt . I would say IDK .

Well , make life simple is best. Serious , simple is the best .

Don't you feel the same like me ?

Been go thru a kinda complicated life in 2011 . Gonna end it up . Zip it tightly .

Life goes on .

Can you please motivate me up to study ?

FUCK YOU .

20.12.11

2011-12-20T16:52:00.000+08:00

Tuesday .

Woke at 9am to give Ttat a morning call as I promised . And yeah ! I did it !

I actually can wake , but I sleep back very fast !

I wasted a day . Guess what , I suppose to do my revision and tutorial , but , my mood hanging in the air !

Just done 10% of tutorial , gosh that I have to submit by tomorrow .

Wondering why I'm so bad till I don't give a DAMN on it . FYI , It's assignment . FML .

Loitering in facebook . Saw AhYong's girlfirend . Penny Tan .
An childish bitch . Born 1994 . KID !

I started my M16 story to my dear WenYih . From scolded to cry .

I don't like this girl , she's the one who crap in my grandpa's funeral .

A bitch . More then that . I hate her .

Link the story to Grandpa and those fucker aunties .

And again , I can't stop crying .

Was crying + talking + scolding .

I curse those aunties . They're the one who cause my grandpa's death , they're the one who bully my mama .

It's natural crying . Tears rolling down itself , NON STOP .

I miss mama , I felt sad .

I miss grandpa , I can never forget how the feel is .

He suppose be with us for the next CNY :'(

I hate those bitchy bastard aunties uncles .

Fucking useless one !

Hate to see your face .

Fuck them always bully my mama . I always had the strong feel to fuck them back .

Arghh ! Mama don't cry :(

Mum's tears always melt my heart :'(

I can't stop crying .

Mi , I miss you . Gong gong , imissyouiloveyou.

Rumour.

2011-12-20T02:46:00.000+08:00

Dear diary ,

Final is nearby the corner . I can feel the stress . Yesh , am gan jeong-ing for it .

31st of Dec - IS final .

FYI , IS , a hard sub for me .

FYI , I always talked to Lucas in class .

FYI , We never pay attention in class since xxxx ago .

Gosh , Blame ownself .

Looking for help . Well , Ttat Lim would help right ? Oh please say yesh .

I don't wanna fail my IS !

Well , am gonna stay one night in WenYih's room !

She cleaned up her room just within 5 minutes ! Pro her !

Give her a claps !

They both , LMAO ! Make me laughed like hell .

Asked me bout him , ask if we're dating right now .

OH GOSH !

It make me laugh like HELL !

Somehow , I admitted that , I like the current feel .

Moderate one :)

Uni Rush Life .

2011-12-19T03:55:00.000+08:00

Well , I did insane stuff again.

I was actually sleep at ~~7.30AM~~ !

Was busy do the SMMTC Advertisement at MISC Hall .

Gonna say million thanks to every single of them .

Thanks for helping . Seriously, especially Lim Tian Tat !

Thanks for helping in design my CD Label .

Thanks AhMei for showing me the road to print the Label , failed to print tho ' :'D

Thanks all of them when they know Minhui coming to find me in the midnight , due to the stupid UK , They stayed .

Touching to see that , but more to guilty . Knew that they had their own assignment to rush and quiz instead.

SORRY I'm saying this .

And am finally done MM assignment ! Hooray !!!!! The happy feel , oh finally I can sleep early , but well , am still here . Deng !

Wanted to say , finally I understand what Darren said to me before , It's UNI life .

Appreciate the moment when we being to be together .

Birthday !

2011-12-16T16:09:00.000+08:00

Well , CRAP !

I was being cheated ! Yuan Lai ! They all cheated me like a fool !

Here's the story goes on .

Minhui , Icecream and I had a meeting at Srr for our stupid flash .

FYI , our actual plan was meet at night , due to Ivan's call , sound urgent and did a booking . So , I tried to ask to change the meeting to noon . And so yea , they said ok .

BUT , Minhui asked us to canceled our date at the last minute meeting . I was like , Oh shit ! I did promised all of them , but now I'm struggle in middle ! fuck !!!!!

Called to Ivan , having class . Called to TtatLim , he was like ignore my request ! Called to Apple ! Waseh ! LCLY ! I x go they don't want to go ! Fuck man !

I was like , xiao eh you semua orang !!! Cried out on the spot !
FUCH YOU ALL !
Bitch and bastard !!!!!

Minhui said she had a meeting , so well , I follow my plan to go perlis with them .

I was actually seriously don't wanna go with them , ruined my mood you know ?

I ignore Apple and Wenyih . Cried so badly . :'<

I sob-out to Darren someore ! LOL !

Keep fuck them ! LMAO !!!

But Well ,

Ta-daaa ! They gave me a super big big big surprise !

MinHui called me once I reach there , sound like blaming me , blame me didn't do assignment but still hang out . Ouchhh ! Cried once again .

ALL CRAZY THEM ! ALL of them cheated me ! They all pop out and sing Birthday song for me !

Seriously , I never expect minhui and Icecream will be there !

I never expect All of them were there for me !

I never expect I will get a such big surprise !

I...was..out of mind to give reaction . *call it stunned ? lol*

Nice foods ! All just delicious man !

Was having gastric , but I tahan till I forgot the pain !

I LOVE YOU GUYS SERIOUS VERY MUCH !

Everyone of you awwwww !!!!!

First time I failed on cheated by b'day deceit ! GoodJob man!

Smurf cake with theme - WTF on it !

Love that to the max .

Mifen wanna say : Thankss for everything , with my deepest sincere desire .

I love this night .
Xie Xie .
My first birthday in UUM with you guys ! RockYa !

Smurt's XXX cut by mifen !!!!!

WTF !!!!!

Well 3 cars , they actually speeding on the highway each other .
Cool man ! I like it LOL !
Cool Ttat Lim ! Next time we choose better car !!

A present from DPP's friend , lol cute them !!! :D

Well , didn't forget to say thankss to Yong Chun Guan also !!! Thanks for sing song , but you're late !

Thanks for your Tang Yuan !!!!! And I forgotten to take photo !

I was too rush to open it and finish it LOL !!!!!

Million thanksss to LaoGong Mathew and Darren ! Thanks for singing for me !

Cute max ! Happy to hear that !

Thanks dear ArrWei , Suann and Mayteng !

OMG MISS YOU GIRLSSSSS !!!!

4 of us ! stick stick stick !

Thanksss Stawberries ! <3

I got you girls's message !

Miss the moment we sticked together ! celebrate tgt . Ohhh noo .

Hey everyone ! Soon we meet !

Please wait me !

Long post , all in one . LOL! Nescafe .

Meteors !

2011-12-15T02:32:00.000+08:00

I had lotsss of bad thing to say but I 've the strong feel to talk bout my night !

Well , met up with Lucas , Mhui and Rain . Watch meteor !
My very first time ! Lying down , watch to the sky , enjoying the fresh air .
Cool man ! I'm loving it !!!!!
Chit-chat with Lucas , we talked alot ! We've lots of similiar pattern and problems LOL !
He's one of my best friend in UUM .
Somehow , I feel like I can talk more with him compare with those girls . *Sorry to say that *
The girls make me piss some of time , well , forget bout it !

I love my night . Shouted when I saw meteors .
Called parents , I miss you guys !
19 METEORS ! I love you !
19 same wishes . Family I love you .

Countdown my birthday .
I can't imagine how my birthday would be in UUM :C
No celebration , no cake , no song , no ambi -
Awwww :C

Busy days !

2011-12-14T03:07:00.000+08:00

Oppsss I actually abandoned my bloggie for so long !
I have no the mood to blogging man :S Screw you I'm lazy bitch !

Was busy with meetingsss , Almost out for meeting everynight ! Stupid assignment and projects !

Well , let me update some which I still can memorize .
Ivan purpose to me , he said he would wait for me , wait for me for 3 years , after I graduated , we get marry .
GOSH ?! Yea shocked me . I never know he's loving me ? oh gawd .

And hell man ! I FALL from BICYCLE !
What's a joke . Head injured bit , and was like almost black out .
Neck swollen , due to what ? IDK ?
Jz pain ewwwwwwwwww ! *Am fine now anyway *

Tomorrow add drop !:D
Bless me babe dude !
I'm watching Darren sleeping ! LOL ! we just finished skype . And he sleep without off his lappy and skype .
Cute him purposely don't want to close just because want me to see his sleeping face ? someore place it in front of his face ! cute MAX ! <3 !

Well , TtatLim would wake me up again :)
Loves ya ! Thankiu <3 !!!

Chagrin .

2011-12-08T18:30:00.000+08:00

Dear Diary ,

I actually cried for two times . Yeah 2 times .

I had put mascara up today , just because tried to cover up my puffy eye .

But I had mess my make up today I think ? I actually cried for twice per day .

I tried to talk to them , but they seem like never give me a chance to talk also ?

So yea , I just walked off , back to my seat just in second .

I bear it to shed . Bear till they gone , look at Yong's face , I felt speechless .

Go to Apple , Yea , cried . To Apple , Tommy and Yong . How ashame !

But I was just couldn't control , I'm sorry .

And finally , 5 of us met up at unicafe .

I had told myself that I can't cry . Cuz you can't show them how weak you're .

Failed again . Fuck myself .

Heartache and I felt chagrin . Of course, you guys can't feel it .

Just I was out of mind , I don't know what to suggest , fed up maybe ?

Suffer from injustice . it feel terrible .

Anyway , a temporarily full stop for this case ?

God , I just don't want any of us separate away .

Can you guys please do the same thing to me too ?

Protect me instead of doing nothing there ? Well , I've no right to asking you guys to doing this .

It's okie . Protect myself will do .

I'm soft-hearted girl . I won't mad at someone for long.

It's my strenght or weakness ? GOD .

无言可语

2011-12-08T02:28:00.000+08:00

今天programming 搞到我疯去，最后一分钟，功课差点交不上。

是紧张到不行。很无助。很感激 Rain 和 Mhui 。

说好和他们见面，突来的状况，说不去了。

到最后，我还是赴约了。

因为我想见他们。

有想要发牢骚的感觉，可是我收回了。

不想搞坏气氛，没必要在大众又再做丢人的事情。忍。

很开心，很兴奋。

我们又可以一起出去疯狂地游玩。

他们都已经把明年的旅游 Plan 得很好。很疯。

不用睡得旅程，说真的，我很期待。

不管怎样，我都会一定说 ~~I ON~~ !

不反悔地说。

晚上，最后一次 FOG 的开会了。

和他们一起跳舞，只想把疯狂的心情带动我整个晚上。

很开心。他们呼叫我的大名。很开心我和师兄们感情很好。

回来宿舍。

很糟糕的事情发生。

我不明，为什么拿我来开刀？

为什么每一次都是关于我？

为什么一定要把我也拖进去？

非要让社团里的所有人误解我，讨厌我？

我，吓倒了！

我看见他 Post 的 Status 。

我呆了一下。

厉害的他，TAG 我。

我真的很火。开骂了。

很抱歉的说一句，我的嘴巴比我的脑袋还要快。

我要说什么就什么了。

不要诬赖我！

不要惹我！

不要搞砸我 !

强忍的眼泪停不住。

找苹果去。

不停的流。

心痛为何我被出卖。

心很痛原来你们在后面这样说我吗？

很伤心，我又再次信错人？

不去了。

很期待的旅行，不去了。

:'C

Wretch .

2011-12-04T20:47:00.000+08:00

Was reading Ttat Lim's wretch blog .

Oh my Gawd ! I accidentally found my blog as well .

I used to use that blog to blogging wey XD

And all in chinese !

Felt so funny due to my chinese words , I mean the way I used to espress.

Gosh fulled of memory . :)

Well , addicted with this song currently :

Making love out of nothing at all

I know it from TtatLim's blog !

Changlun.

2011-12-03T01:41:00.000+08:00

话说，本来不去的。
我改变主意。
叫他们先去的，他们还是等。

那班女人的样子。一副欠打的样。看到都讨厌。
美人叫你们等好吗？谁叫男的怎样都要等我们？
算了吧，第一次，也是最后一次吧。

TtatLim 和 Tjman 来陪我们。
说真的，真的真的很感激他们，我们始终比较聊得来。
一起唱歌！一起打机！
不错感觉！

晚上中秋晚会。
杨下来和我谈天。再回他的狗兜哈哈哈哈！
超级喜欢那个 DJ !!! 超级帅！ He's expert in beatbox !!! I LOVE HIM !!
中国杂技表演也很赞！

吃不消。

2011-12-02T02:32:00.000+08:00

来个简单的说.

今天，杨都在陪我。还一起吃了鸡扒。

我们的第一次，都给了对方！

第一次在他的宿舍吃鸡扒。

他第一次和我吃雪糕。

还有很多。

笑了 :)

他，竟然订汤圆给我。假的他，买两盒，说请我朋友一起吃。

窝心其实。

他应该没想到我会在那出现吧？

在我面前问她：怎样？如果我想买给 BSN 的？

微笑 :) 他是可爱的。

晚上，和师姐师哥们。

帮了他们小小的忙。愉快。

回房，大佬说她们也会去。

我，绝对退出。不喜欢就对了。

对不起。

他，老 2 好像生气了。

他失望了。

对不起，等会我们游泳。

昨天他的变化让我吃不消。

变得超体贴地。

伟洪下午一同来电说对不起。

算了吧，没事。

3 对 1 。

吃不消了。

Sweet soup balls or glue pudding or rice ball ?

2011-11-30T21:26:00.002+08:00

It's midwinter period ! Awww homesick :'C

Think , I used to eat mum's hand make tang yuan !

And I always waiting for the tang yuan sup !

I miss you mummy , sure you're gonna be busy with pray stuff again .

wake early bla bla bla .

Homesick :'C

Isn't easy to stay outside alone .
Mummy , I 've lots to tell you actually , but I was just too shy maybe ?
Or maybe I just didn't know how to start it .
Just , I love you Daddy Mummy . ♥

American call it rice ball .

England call it sweet soup ball .

I call it 爱心汤圆 . Lovely ball ? LMAO !

Calls.

2011-11-30T03:03:00.000+08:00

Answered a call from Ah Han !

OMFG , You know we can just chat like nobody .

Talk porn, crap . Anything !

This's the feel that I want !

I can just speak out what I want , without thinking of anything , just talk .

Miss you guyss to the max , You all the only friends that I can play 99 with my truly heart <3 !

Another call from YongChunGuan !

Omg Happy ! Again , I always laugh happily with his voice .

He said nothing funny but I laugh,neither .

Well . This call LIFE .

Itik praised me !
FYI , He seldom praise people !
I look much more prettier , he said !
OMG HAPPY TO MAX !
Hahahhahahahhahahhahahahahahahha ! I know right LMAO !

I been tagged with HAPPY LAUGH .

Smile ya !

难言。

2011-11-29T02:50:00.000+08:00

人。就是这样。

当你觉得你一定得到时，你不会好好珍惜。

当你开始知道他渐渐远离你时，你就会开始觉得害怕。

我突然觉得，他就好像是我的习惯。

习惯和他聊天，习惯看到他就会哈哈大笑。

奇怪的是，现在看到他，不再哈哈大笑，却是微笑。

绝对不是因为我对他厌倦了。

我说：喜欢看你认真的样子。

不知是不是这个原因，他因此就摆出认真不笑的样子给我看。

以前看见他认真的样子，我就会大笑。

以前看见他搞笑的样子，我就会大笑。

这几天，我发现，我们渐渐远了。

虽然，他还是在找我，可是我可以感觉到，不同了。

我对着他，没有再大笑。他远远的走来，我竟然看着他微笑了起来。

搞不懂我在做什么。

今天，我们又在同一个时间见面了，我竟然有点期待这个时段，因为我们一定会见面。

他坐了下来，我们的话题不多了。为何？不晓得。

叫他帮我按摩颈项 :) 他做。

走在太阳底下，他总会帮我顶。

只有他会帮我顶太阳吧？每次他帮我顶太阳，我都会觉得很窝心。

可是偏偏我们话题好像少了。

偏偏他在我面前提起那个她，我竟然有点不甘的感觉。

疯了。米粉，你还不是一样到处留种吗？白痴。不同！

我问：下个学期，我们还会有机会这样坐下来见面吗？

我问：我们以后会吵架吗？

我疯了。

自然-natural .

2011-11-27T22:04:00.000+08:00

自然的笑，我喜欢。

自然的生活，我渴望。

Jitra 一日游

2011-11-26T02:58:00.000+08:00

今天，最最最开心，最最最轻松的一天了！

Assignments 干完了！暂时放松！爽倒不会讲！

和他们出去疯了！原本的泰国，不成了。换去近近的也不错 <3

我们五人！

喜欢我们在一起的时候！

简单的一天，可是却充满笑声。

简单的一天，我们并没有白费去。

简单的一天，我们做了疯狂的事。

简单的一天，我跑了两次追巴士！

感觉很充实，我们今天都大喊说：今天很疯狂，超开心！不想分开！

It wasn't me

2011-11-24T03:50:00.000+08:00

I lost control today .

I got no idea why I had such fucking moody bloody mood this noon .

I cried , outside of class .

Mr.Harry caught me . Asked me to wash my face .

He get shocked he said , such a happy smiling always girl is crying in front of him .

God , do you know why I cried ? No , You don't . I, either .

There's too much , it's plenty , It's fulled and it's squeeze out .

I had nightmare for few days .

I wake with shocked ! Seriously , I dreamed a lottttt , and it's negative dream.

Whats the sign ?

I needa real true talk , I need fresh air .

Just like last days , 10 of us hang out just wanted to do the group pass to go Thailand .

Due to com system , well , we failed to do it , yet it's a wonderful day for me .

Out from campus , look at street , get in Proton Wira make me feel like , I was relief .

Look at the sky , it look different ? It's beautiful one .

Simple lunch + Grab our needs in Giant . It make my day tho ' .

How much I wish we could out more more and more .

I'm totally get bored with here . Stress , nightmare torturing me .

Help meeeeeeeee :'C

See the cloud .
I love it .
I can feel the fresh .

~~TellmeIgonnabeokay.~~

I wasnt me . I feel cold .

The strong wind . When the flood come ?

Darren , do you know ? your call at least make me feel that I've someone be with me , at least .

At night , at least , cuz you sleep late always . But earlier then me always .

But it helped .

Nights , Please no nightmare anymore :'CC

I'm begging .

The Video.

2011-11-23T01:34:00.000+08:00

Dear Diary ,

I found the wedding video , accidentally . I was kept on finding the video last time , for some period .
After it gone from my destop's history .
And now I got it back , from you tube . Was just wanna listen to the song :
Secrets in Stereo - Happy .
But accidentally , The video pop-out .
At this moment . Weird , everything happens at this period.
The video , the Thailand trip .

You'll know why I love this song if you're my loyal follower .
You'll never know how much I love this song . It mean A LOT for me .
The Praan song make me stunned , a moment , as it's the starting song of the video /
It sooooo familar . It's warm still .
But the feel gone . Was about to shed when I found this .
Seriously , it's kinda hard for me to forget .
You might forgive but never to forget what had happened .

Complicating feel , yea it hacked me once again .

Dec is coming , December . Play with the dates and number .
Till now , it still keep in my mind .
:C What's wrong ?

Thailand .

2011-11-22T03:11:00.000+08:00

Guess , am watching Vampire Diaries .
I'd been craved for it for so long since last last last years ago ? When I was in form 6 ? Upper or lower 6 ?
Well , Elena, Catherine, Damon, Stefan and Jeremy . I miss you guysss so fucking much !

And another story , am gonna to do a group book with them - coursemate to go to THAILAND .
Just , uh--uh , I felt like , the past . Watching Vampire , planning the Thailand trip , well , reflash lots of thing .
Okei no point to thinking back but somehow , some stuff make me wanna escape of it .
Just IDK why :C
Messy brain .

Cont with Vampire , come on !

Crazy !

2011-11-18T17:31:00.000+08:00

~~Crazy Me.~~

Yeah I'm always crazy one !

CuiCui back to her homie yesterday :C So yea - I was alone for the day .

*Well , I get used to be with it already, I prefer alone sometimes tho' :'D *

Oppss back to topic , Crazy .

Guess what I did .

Answered a call fom Darren .

Lying on bed chit-chat . :)

And it make me even more sleepy lol !

Was intend to take a short nap for about 1 hours from 9pm-10pm .

And LOL ! I actually ignore the alarm and cont to sleep till 12.00am !!!

~~*Okie , it's like always and that's why I always need someone call me up *~~

Woke up , received a call from Yong . LOL chun timing wey ! He called once I wake ! =)

Okie press forward :P Chat with Senior Koh and we actually said if want to meet up .

LOL ! Of course I on as he can teach me and since I was soooooooo energetic !

Another call from Darren again ! :D

*Was thinking like thansk god these2 guy didn't call me when I was sleeping , you guys serious can guess my time ! *

Met up with Koh at MISC Hall .

*Ehem*

Glad that I found a night owl here !! Awww !

Chit-chat more then we do our homework huh ? LOL ! Important I can done all my job :)

AND AND AND ! We actually back to our own hostel at 6am !

Sleepless day ! Pro us ?

Say yes man !

Took as eveidence !
I had done my programming homework !
Oh McD again ! <3
*Ignore my eye dark circle ! *
Can you see my lil color hairry ?
Chestnut Brown is appeared day by day :P

MoveOn !

2011-11-17T02:38:00.000+08:00

From I wake , Fuck .

I period . Period pain killed me ! Energylessssss ! I hate period and I think same goes to every girl right !

Text LaoGong , know what ? He was like sounded me. Frankly , I don't like the way he shoot me .
Not because of his blame actually but , I though he would understand what am I trying to tell him , but he seems like no. Asked me to move on bla bla bla !
No doubt, his sentence wake me up . As in though . I don't wanna let the awkward position being continuous form. Like how I hate the programming " Float " ! decimal point always make work endless .

Texted her back , to clear everything .

Yea , Move on . What for ? It's happening and for sure you've no any right to talk bout it . Like how I choose to being silent before . Follow wind will do.

I've more important thing to do , yea , don't always get lost in such small matter .
Life full of changes . As you're uni student right now mifen , so think outside the box .

You'll get something new and different .
Don't worry am just fucking fine cuz you guys have no that strong power to influence me for so long .

Finally , I know how she feel like , last time .
Finally , I know something new again.
Finally , I'm relief .
Finally , I done blogging !
Nights !

No mood for Assignment tonight .

最后。

2011-11-16T03:58:00.000+08:00

Cried from 1 am something till now - 3.30am . It's going to 4am .

Puffy tired eye , collapsed ? IDK .

Why am I crying ? Fuck :'C

I just don't know why . I had the hard feel .

I feel like , I'm nothing , I'm nobody .

I wish someone is beside me right now , talk to me , listen to me .

Yong wanted to come , but seriously , I don't know how to tell . So rejected sorry .

A call from Darren , trying to bare it . Failed . Shivering voice make mission spoiled .

Cried to screen from soundless to shivering badly .

Mr.Harry said I'm a person happy go lucky , laugh at anything , even including myself .

Yeah , am laughing at myself right now .

KoonMengFern , you such a failure .

KoonMengFern , you such a toy .

KoonMengFern , you such a babyism .

Darren said : Mifen you're naive .

Naive ? now I try to think back , yeah , as in foolish one . I admitted . Like always .

Think back many things, huhhh , Who am I at last ?

You're pathetic one KoonMifen.

YOU .

Why are you trying to hide it up ?

Aren't we are good friend ? Oh okie , maybe I'm not for you . okie take noted .

The hard feel when your friend hiding everything from you since you thought you can share everything with her .

Nooo . Seems like , someone does not .

Ask me , What's the reason I cry .

Ask me , What are you thinking .

Ask me , Are you okay ?

Sorry , IDK the answer for you .

这几天，累垮了。

沉重的功课，忙得不可开交。

尽了力去完成　。　

我，做到了。

这几天，累垮了。

沉重的眼泪，也开始忙了起来。

尽了力去停止。

我想，我做到了。

恐怖，为何恐怖？

一切发生的，我无法应付。

从容的应付吧。　没什么大不了。

有人会在你身旁帮你顶。　

在欺骗自己吗？　明明知道他们不可以。

很可笑，告诉女儿要勇敢面对。

而我呢　？

过了那么久，却还搞不懂，如何解决心病。

心生病了，你可以替我治疗吗？

4 点钟，对我来说，

不再陌生。

他们却让我很陌生了。

没权骂怒问。

只管顾好自己。

就快垮了。

很想很想休息。

看来，不被允许。

安了。

３小时，好好利用。

最后，

我什么都不是。

I love my parents .

2011-11-12T02:15:00.000+08:00

Am now in UUM .

FYI , I brought a lot of stuff ! Luggage bagsss ! :S

Fuck the bus ! Move at 10.30am but reach at UUM at 10pm !??

Screw it ! And IDK how many times I fall asleep in bus LOL !

Luckily Yong sat beside me , serious million thanks to him ! He helped me to carry all the luggage AND bags !

How nice :D Thank you !!!!!

Somehow , I wish UUM flood 99 !

I cried in bus to Yong for the very first time . Yea first time show him my tears .
I miss mummy :'<

I couldn't bear anymore . From the moment I woke up , felt like drop a tear when I was brushing teeth .

Thank you mummy , thank you daddy .

Thanksssss for accomplish my every single request during these two weeks holiday .

Know what , I felt the warm , the love .

I can eat whatever I want . I can just tell mummy like : I wanna eat yong tau fu .

Then you can see the dish at night ! Awwwwwww :')

I love you so so so deep my best mum and dad .

Please take care . I'll be back by next year . Can't wait .

I'll try my best to catch up my study . As what you said , jia you :'D

Wo Ai Ni Men .

I changed my title from- BackToUUM to I love my parents . Know why ?
Cuz they mean more a lot for me compare with everything .

I can feel like , how's importance to stay a warm relationship with family .
They'll support you ALL THE TIME when you having rub.
Especially the one who give you a life - Parent .
They advised , they consoled , they lectured .
~~" All is for your own good "~~
I had never understand why those words always come from them .
Now I know .
There's no thank you between family ?
But I would like to say :

I LOVE YOU . WITH MY DEEPEST HEART !

First Holiday .

2011-11-10T03:05:00.000+08:00

Midvalley Pc expo outfit .
I have to diet edi !!!!!
Say no to oily food and tummy.
But you know It's hard task for me :S

Tomorrow's the day . 11.11.11 .

Not a romanic day for me but a suffer sucks day . I've to go back to the jail man :C

Stress cuz of the flash .

You know I'm a noobie . Lack of idea and concept in design .

~~FML .~~

Thanks PengLee rush to my house to talk to me .

He said , he would like to be my lover for my following 3 years .LMAO.

No doubt , he's concerning me enough . The 2nd guy who rush to my house when I cry :P

First - RyanTan .

Second - PengLee .

Sweet you thanks :)
And no thanks as well .

I found that , I know and I gained quite alot during this holiday .
Well , I didn't outting oftenly like previous .
I even didn't spend much !! No more then 100 I think .
But parents spent alot on me :S
Kettle pot , foods , needs etc .
I stayed home , spent my time with family most of the time .

I know some of them were unsatisfy of me .
Cuz of what ? Just because I didn't meet up with them .
Funny ? Sounds like am an important character ?
I'm not mean to anyone but , seriously , I GOT no time !
Timing problem .
Just , don't ever try to show me your fucking attiude like I did something wrong .
I just wanted to tell you , helo , I born not to entertaint you .
I've my own plan . Everyone busy for their own life doesn't wrong right ?

Nobody are born to be with you forever .
Even a couple , they might get marry , but one of them will die one day first , too .

Don't complaint who who who don't bother you .
It's just because they busy with their work . We've only 24 hours .
All the same . Hope you understand .
or maybe they actually already fed-up on you .
Im saying someone ? Oh IDK LOL !

Just I serious don't like people using the stupid ejek tune talk to me .
ShutYourFuckingMouth is always better then talk cock .

Just I would like to say 'Sorry' for my absence and didn't show up .
Next year will meet soon .

First UUM holiday . And it gonna to be end within 24 hours ++ :C
Damn it . I wasted it .

Artwork .

2011-11-08T23:07:00.000+08:00

FUCK MY LIFE .
They kept on posting their art work on the group wall.
I was like , fuck man . I know , Mine will BE the sucks and worst one .
Controling my tears . Waiting Penglee to come .
Thanks for coming to teman me . Seriously , I need someone to talk to me right now .

谢谢。

2011-11-05T00:19:00.001+08:00

做完已经说好今天一起出去的。

早上很早就起床做Assignment 。以为会做出一点成绩，然后再和他出去。

结果，和 charis skype 到很愉快，忘了做功课。

结果他火了。顾客那边又出问题，更加火。

说真的，心很慌。放飞机的感觉真的很不爽。

答应陪他吃午餐。

他说去他家，我说有分别？

他说他不喜欢打字，喜欢用讲的。我可以在那边做功课，他打扫，帮我做功课。

去了他家，他的电话不停。顾客问题。脸上只有一个烦字。

我，不敢出声，只是对他笑一下。算是给他一个安慰吧？

看得出他不想让我失望吧？坐下来，问我功课还好吗？

帮我尝试画了一下，电话又响了。

最后，他吃饭了，自己弄热来吃。

拔壳后，虾进我嘴。哈哈！

他帮我做 Sport Science 的功课！功课留下了，心想：他会有时间吗？

他说没问题。

谢谢你 ^^

真的，贴心。我喜欢。

Outtings week .

2011-11-04T12:29:00.000+08:00

Let me tidy up my schedule for this whole week ! :D

Sat -

Had a drink with LaoGong and LuiLui ArWei :) Chit-Chat a must .

Cont added with Pua , fatty Low , Sia and RyanLow ! Serious long long long time never meet up with Sia and Ryan man ~ Beer for Pua , Softdrink for them , I ordered nothing :P

Shift to DG for 2nd round ! drink till 1am , reached home by 1.30am plus !

OMG I love midnight life ! Say yesh for them :)

Sun -

Went to Midvalley , TheMines and I bough a new phone !

Not ACE but Corby2 ><

Anyway , I don't request a best but okay la kan ? Can use :)

Met with Michael ! He said I getting prettier and I gained meat . Damnnnn ~

Tue -

Terrible day ! Cuz of him , ruined my mood . Scolded from day to evening LOL !

Met up with Suann !!! A very finally ? Chat like previous <3

The first time she fetch me , the first time I sat in her car . Drove to Papparich , pull her to McD at last !

She treated me Ice-cream and French Fries :P !!

She was in mad , adui...those bitches , the common problem . I hate such peoples !

It's good when two mad women meet and scold whatever we want ! Grr ! Curse them !

Wed -

Connaught with Joe , Sucks night .

Bought nothing ! Less people + less stall .

Ruined my mood . Bored to the max .

Anyway , super duper thanks Mr.Joe :D

He fetched me from Puchong , then fetch me go Connaught , then fetch me back , he back his Puchong .

Killed him alot of time and petrol oppsss !

Thur -

Out with Darren :)

Teman him for dinner , damn him ! A road idiot LOL !

1030pm only reach my house Grr !

Went to mahkota for dinner . He seem like planned to have 2nd round YamCha , so yea .

Ordered ice tea , oh he grab it and order another hot tea for me :D

Oh he drank two cup !

I suggested mini genting :) So he just straight on .

I like this type of outtings , suggest and On on the spot .

Gastric :C He bought me milk :)

Unexpected he ll buy me a milk , Thank you :)

Stopped at the half peak , another unexpected that we would stop , I though just sit in car and yao che hor ?

First time I sit at the stall and look at the scene . It's nice ! He ordered 2 cup of hot milo !

It was cold man ! And I x drink oppsss..he drank 2 cup again LOL !

Reached home by 1.00am !!
Thanks for caring :)

KID !

2011-11-02T00:22:00.000+08:00

I lost my voice today , I cried , I felt like over mad .

FYI , I'll shed everytime I was in mad or sad .

Yea , Dy cheated me , cheated Des , cheated my dad indirectly as well .

What's the story goes on ?

Hmmm , I'll tell if you ask .

I just wanna tell you , the kid .

You know what are you doing . And we know what you did .

Don't need to act anymore , you're so fucking fake .

Would you feel ashame with yourself ?

Would you feel stupid with your lies ?

Would you feel you're extra one ?

Would you feel embrassed ?

Oh you're not .

Sorry to say that , you're sucks .

Sorry to say that , you're nobody for me now .

You were my friend , but not anymore .

I never expect you ll cheat me , even I gave you so much chance ?

FINE , You spoiled it . Since it happened , I think I dont need to give you any face ?

Respect you ? I dont think I need to do so .

Childish KID .

CHEAP.

A small amount can test a real face , yea you paid for him , so what ?

You cheated still .

Stop acting man . opss..you're not a man but KID .

Don't act like you're a boss.
Don't act like you're god .
FUNNY PATHETIC !

Liar .

2011-11-01T14:37:00.001+08:00

LIAR !!
Wiping my tears , infront of mum , saying fuck you to you bastard .
Friends ? Giving you a chance , but you never appreciate .
CHEAP , YOU'RE SO CHEAP !

Trap .

2011-10-28T16:42:00.000+08:00

It's 28/10 .

It's my 3rd day of holiday .

And I still havent start my assignment , do you know the fear ?

Scare to start to do it ? Due to IDK how to do at all . The flash :'C

Okie well .

Was slept at 3.40 plus . I fucking hate people controling me . Control my sleeping time ! WTF .

Forced by dad to enter room . Dammmnnn ! 12.0am ! Ta Ma De .

Anyway , fb still for the whole night .

The reason I don't wanna off is because of him .

We chat .

I waited him till 3.30am plus . He watched his laughing , I chat with Joe .

He asked me to wait him for 10 more minutes , so yea , I waited .

Ask if want to skype for awhile , yea , we skyped then .

/.\

You know the feel like , speechless ?

Skype for only few minutes , we were sleepy , so off straight .

But I'm very sure that , it's not that deep . I can out from the trap still .

Diary ILY . cuz you're the only one who can understand me wholly .

It's okay if others dont understand :)

Home :D

2011-10-27T22:58:00.000+08:00

The day we back .
While waiting in KFC :D
Luckily I 've bunch of them .
They carried my luggage and bags for me .
Sweet babes !

Siblings love is never break apart even we didn't meet for so long already .
This call bloody-relation .
Love them to the max :')

Muackksss !

Thank you YongChunGuan .

2011-10-25T13:36:00.000+08:00

Apple , WenYih and CuiCui were back ytd .
Thanks God YongChunGuan was with me for the night . He came over my Dpp , bought burger , sat down , chit-chat like just so familiar .
He's always the one who with me whenever I need someone to be with me :)
That's why I'll think of him everytime I'm alone and boring . LOL.

Just don't know why , I can predicted . I knew he would come .
Don't want he come cuz it's quite a far distance to come over , but he insist to come also . So yea .
His phone message rang non-stop . His friends were finding him , asking him to back hostel , yet he was still stay with me . Cute and nice one :)
I wondering , why our topic seem like getting lesser ?
NOT lesser but I'm always the one who keep on talk talk talk like a noisy bird while he's always just keep quiet . I want him to talk more lol !

And still , I'm the story reporter . He always the listener .
I saw his eye redish man , lol !
Forced him to go back LOL !

" I dont have any nice story " he said .
So yea , everytime he find me , it's time for me to tell him my story and he starts to being a good listener.
End up at 12.00am plus . No boring night :D

Thankssss you babi bakchee and dai B ..LMAO ! :目
Using 1st face :P

失控了。

2011-10-24T02:56:00.000+08:00

今天，跌进沟渠，一只脚在里面，我大笑，爆笑到不行 . 就觉得超好笑的。就算很多人在看着我，我还是很开心地大笑 :目
不知是不是早上笑得有点过火，晚上，我大哭了。

电话被遗留在复印店里，我跑回房间看，很好，真的不见了。
跑回房间，找了一遍，我哭了，很自然地，可得很大声。几乎用喊的。
失控了，苹果猴子来看我，我真的无法忍受，放声的大哭，大骂。
公公的照片在里面，最后的一次照片没了。
我，真的哭到失控。要回家的前一天，电话没了。
我想念它了，里面所有的照片都没有 Backup。
我觉得自己真的很失败，从我踏进大学到现在，没有一件事能做好，真的。
Darren 叫我回去，他不停的叫我回。
其实很感动，那天他的一通电话让我很轻松，不知对他哭了了几次,那次哭因为pendrive和压力的事件，就很自然的，想说就说出来了。
安慰了我很久，命令我这个那个的。温柔的声音让我很平静。

电话没了，哭得几大声也没用，找不会了。
最后的3张照片就这样被那个扑街拿走了。
我想揍你，更想咒你。
哭得很累，又哭又笑。看见苹果猴子，我们3个就一定会笑。
哭完就笑，然后又哭。白痴我知道。

其实，哭了过后，我，真的很累很累。
可是就是不愿意上床睡觉。
我，认：很没用。

和贞说：或许这个就是让你放下以前的好开始。
现在，我还可以用同一番话来告诉自己吗？
其实不是什么大件事，可是，就是，严重失控。

对哥在 Skype 大声地骂，我说我会处理，不要来乱我！
被妈骂回，就知道了。
心情糟透了。

今天的我（23/10/2011）疯过了头。

Regret ?

2011-10-22T17:24:00.000+08:00

Human - is a complicated living things .

I'm human , so am complicate one .

Had intergration this morning , at DKG 3/2 . It was my first time to enter the classroom , well , thanks GOD it's not my actual classroom , the smell YUCKS !

Apple told me her problem . Her boyfie .

I just don't know why , I had the strong feel like , tell her my all feelings and story that I had been go thru .

My tears was about to drop .

She storied her boyfie's family problem , I shared mine .

I think of them , the two nice parents .

IDK WTF happen on me , I shouldn't mention it anymore right ?

Ya .

I was just , don't get what my mind thinking , I don't dare to think of it .

Since everything going just so smooth now , why do I need to think of it ? Point of think of ? F .

I think of what he did on me .

I think of what I did .

I try to get back the scene , and the feeling smacked me . Awww :'C

I don't wanna to think of it , but , it's sometimes uncontrolable .

Do you understand me ?

Can you hear me ?

Can you feel me ?

You shall wash a face , stop to think of it .

If you ask me again : Are you regret ? No . I didn't , but I do , in some certain part of story .

Never regret your past, the only thing you should regret is the time you've wasted with the wrong people - The love Stories .

22/10/11-1.48am

2011-10-22T01:48:00.000+08:00

Cousin Sis A Ling had just born a baby boyyyy :D
She told me in fb . And she promised to pick me up to Penang if I want to . Hoooray !
The baby is born , finally .
Grandpa have no fate to see him for once . Bet he's looking at the baby in heaven right ? Imissyou . :C

I ate Xiu Yok Fan this noon ! Satisfy to the max !
anyway , Im...

it's lazy for me to explain something here..nights

忙碌。

2011-10-21T02:49:00.000+08:00

WT .

2011-10-21T02:03:00.000+08:00

Didn't on9 for 2 days ? Ohh..I dont remember . Shit the line !!

Well , seriously , I spent ALOT on meal .
Withdraw RM 100 ytd , and I left RM 70 . Means I spent RM 30 per day on meal .
WTF right !? I can eat alott...Wttt...

HusbandS !

2011-10-16T22:26:00.000+08:00

Ivan aka lao gong .

Lol yea another new Lao Gong .

I know him sinceeee lol I don't even remember .

I getting closer with him when I was dating with Jimmy .

He used to sob-out his love story to me , he's a loyal one .

And IDK why just so sudden , he became my husband LMAO !

Not because I flirt around but lol..it happens just so natural .

Today -161011- his birthday .

he present he want from me is lol ! my Kiss , he want me kiss him by holding his hands .

Sounds funny man ! No wayyyy :P

He just called me , well , chat-ed .

About his doggie , I felt like , he's just so cute . Sometimes, he's naive in thinking .

He's 28 tho ' , but he's just so young for me .

Smiling when talking phone to him .

Somehow , I 've had the lil feeling like , he have a lil bit like Him .

The talking way can make me laugh just so easily while he's actually just trying to being serious .

Awww =)

Well well well , am not in love anyway !

Just sharing . My though .

I miss another Sweet LaoGong Mathew .

He called me last two days . In midnight .

Chat with him with my blur condition .

Seriously , been long time never chat in phone sinceeeee IDK when .

We used to talk in phone last time , I love it :D

Talk to him is just so relax . Just feel like , I happy to know him . Seriously .

Cuz the reason , we know .

Thanks and love you from me to you . You know the reason why right ?

No idea .

2011-10-16T17:43:00.000+08:00

Dear diary ,

I got no idea why am I keep think of him recently .
When I do nothing in the class .

When I read some post which related sensitive with .

When I link some event up with him .

Just IDK why .
Not because I miss him , but he serious spoiled my life .

788 th post .

2011-10-16T17:23:00.000+08:00

Can see my pimple ?
Yea.
My face getting worse.
~~FML~~ :C

I was having a super duper good mood after Kenegaraan class cuz all of my Malay teammate played with me ,
Joking around , full of laughters . You all the best .
BUT , I don't really in mood now ,
know what ,
I see wrong my time table , I though my 2nd class was 12.30pm .
And obviously , I was wrong ! ~~FUCK~~ IT . 12.00 - actual time .
Straight away off laptop without shut down , I was crazy !
Rush out , waited for the bus to move .
Sam Gap !!
3rd class canceled .
The programming class . Everyone seem so hardworking to type and learn and try to make it run well .
While I was like , LET IT BE.
Seriously , I don't like programming .
But I don't hate . Just sometimes I hope I 'll love it one day .
Play with the code , computer language which other don't fucking understand .
How cool when you can create a program out .
But too bad , it wasn't me .
I don't hope I' ll hate programming one day , I learnt from Shaun for ONCE , I like programming at the moment .
But not for now : <
Somehow , I can predicted that , the worse is coming towards .

788 sounds nice ?
But my day isn't nice enough .
ShutUp !

The mysterious person .

2011-10-15T23:41:00.001+08:00

There's a man gazing at you when you've had your dinner .
When you look back , he look to another side .
Same goes to me LOL .

He look so familar . Guess we met before at somewhere , or maybe we did chit-chat before either ?
I bump into him at Sime Darby just now , It's call fate ?
My first time to have my dinner at Sime Darby , and yea , we just passing by each other .
His eye sight spot on me again .
Wondering if he's staying in Sime Darby .

His handsome face :D Look natural nice .
Awww ! Sounds so wrong . Something wrong to me !
No WAY !

Oh dear eye , No peep !

Satisfy .

2011-10-15T16:25:00.000+08:00

Dear diary ,

I just done my Kenegaraan assignment . Well , it's actually quite simple one But I take long time to finish it .
Damnn it lol !

Well , lotss of assignment are waiting me to settle down . WTF :'C

Oh yea , I just wanna always remind myself , just be the one who you are .
Don't ever try to change yourself cuz of someone .
Nobody can change you if you don't want to do so .
Be yourself .
They can't accept you , they cant understand why are you talking like this way , they dont fucking understand why are you so diff with other girl , so what ?

Who do you think you are ?

I am who I am .
I am Koon Mifen . Don't mess with me .

FAT !

2011-10-14T20:52:00.001+08:00

Look !
Eff FAT !
Seriously , I spent alot on my meal .
Especially my dinner , I can even take 2 set !
Goshhhhhhhhhh !!

My draw !!

2011-10-14T15:44:00.001+08:00

Well ,
It's my name , Apple's and WeYih's !

3 of us !

Cute right ? LOL !

LOL ! we said , we going to MARRY with 3 twins BRO !

Equation 1 !

Equation 2 !

Our future man !
Know why my husband will be in 80-an ?
Cuz I wore slack high !

The PIG ! PORK !

We were just too boring in the talk just now .

Wasted our precious off day - Lovely Fri !

Sporting Life !

2011-10-12T14:59:00.001+08:00

I can twist my tongue like this way which not everyone of you can do this :P

It's simple yet it's not for others .
It's just actually same as L.I.F.E.
You're the one who decide to make your life simple or complicated way .

Well guys C :
I joined Swimming Club and Aiesec !
Yea , it's not a big deal for you guys but it's mean for me !
Know what , I seriously LOVE ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ to swim !
I was wondering if I could swim after I step in Uni .
And yea !! It's happening !
Didn't join the swimming class but a member first since I already how to swim ?
I shall join the ~~LIFESAVER~~ ! Doubt if I can save people's life ? LOL !
Expecting mannn !! :D
Joined Aisec due to it's activities ? Sounds great !
You know I'm a playful and active one . Yesh :P

I can answer Hubungan Etnik's Quiz well ! Ta-daa ! It's the result what you get if you READ . No regret .
# I did open note actually LOL #

Sporting life goes on !

Cycling will do later on !

Trying to turn the relax mode on !

And my assignment is waiting me to switch ON :'C

Pack .

2011-10-11T11:51:00.000+08:00

Studying in Library .
But am like more to fb-ing and bloging ?
Stupid ish !

Gonna have a discussion with the boysss . And gonna do power point , And gonna start revision for quiz . And gonna start my assignment . And Gonna go PKU to check my eye , tag along WenYih as well since She having cough .

Grrrrrr Tiring life I having right now .
WTH .

Packkkkkkkkkkk time table . GoodJob once again .

101011 .

2011-10-10T22:53:00.000+08:00

I can feel my eye is seriously getting serious .

I cant face to laptop more then 10 minutes .

~~I can feel the pain~~ . Awww !!!

It's tiring .

Lucas bought me an Eye Mo !

BUT , IDK why , IDK what the fuck my eyeball even MORE PAIN after i drop the liquid in my eye .

It's like a needle poking your eye ! My eye go reddish very fast .

They said , it look so yucksss !

Damnnnnnnnnnnnn :'C

Today's Sun is HOT LIKE HELL mannnn !!

I even get darker already !!

3 persons told me I look dark and face dull per day !

OMFG ! I cant accepttt !

Ngo Jit Sao Mm Dou !! Whitening will do !!!

Just back from the Funny Olimpik programme's meeting . Well , it's kinda fun to cooperate with seniorssss !

They're all just so nice :D

I'm under the biro publicity C: Easy JOB ! Mou Man Tai !

But somehow , I wanna join the biro programme which concrete in create games .

That's my expert wey ! Awww this make me miss form 6 more !

The Amazing Race that we planned and done in Form 6 . What's a great successful one !!

* ClapHands *

This week will be my busy busy week !

Assignment , presentation , quiz , meeting , search 75 person to join our game .

None of my day is free :C

Somehow , I can feel the substantial life . I like it .

Just hope everything still under control .

Sleepy , it's 1045pm :D

Gonna sleep early tonight ! Might wake in midnight (?)

Tomorrow gonna meet with the male gang teammate for IS presentation .

So I think I 'll go earlier to do my own revision and assignment due to the SO-CALL faster line ?

FYI , I love the quiet and comfort surrounding when I read .

Nights peoples !

Rest my eye :)

When we belong together .

2011-10-10T03:08:00.000+08:00

We snap alottt ; D
Happy when I mess with them everytime !
We even recorded a singing video . Well , FAILED ! Cuz I was kept on laughing ! It was toooo funny !
Will do for the next time ! Stay tuned !

Damnnnnn :'C My assignment , IDK how to start at all .
It's 3.08 am now.
OMFG !

决定。

2011-10-07T13:00:00.001+08:00

想说，我在这过得还可以吧？

所谓的还可以，可是压力没有减少过。

怎么说呢？

他们都说：好好享受大学生活，你这些容易紧张又容易压力的人，破坏了大学生活的风趣。

他们都说：最后一分钟才做也行啦。船到船头自然直。

我，是最后一分钟的人。中六时的我，潇洒到考试的前一晚才拼命读，可是很好彩，通常都会做。

现在的我，不知为什么，感觉好像有很多都读不完，作业，作品，在等着我去干掉他们。

时间很紧逼，有可能是我不会处理时间？变了。

- 6/10 -

本来应该是一个很平凡却压力的一天。何来的压力？作业。就算有这巨大的图书馆又怎样？还不是一样对我的作业毫无帮助？

不是在评论些什么。我只是有感而发。

但，唯一可以让我专心温习的地方，就只有这让人又爱又恨的图书馆了。安静，舒适。

我想念新纪元的图书馆，陪伴我走过大考的日子。

今天，我很累。6点才睡觉的我，眼睛实在痛到不行。还不是为了 Programming 。但感恩，松毅和婉仪救了我一命。他们很乐意地教我。谢你们！松毅还是一步步地教我呢。开心。

7点就起床。 1个小时就这样利用去了。

到了班，老师只逗留了一下，说有开会。再见 :)

和那3个男生吃了早餐，三文治。简单，懒得用脑去想吃什么。累。

去了图书馆。

为了我 Kenegaraan 而找书去。

最后，得到的是 Programming 的书。失败吧？

宇洲教我借书，还书。开心。我会了！

咪打来，问候吧。

我说我6点睡。功课，我不会。这科目实在不适合我。压力很大。很不开心。

听得出，她有吓倒吧？才刚开始，我就说不会了。刚开始，应该是简单的。

对，我就是笨。我认。

我不是天才，我靠后天的努力。

她说：你想继续吗？

我说：如果我说不想呢　？

她说：那就回来吧。走你要的路。

不知为什么，我的心情跌到谷底。对不起，我没用。让你们失望了。

他叫我做决定。真的很难。

我想证明我是行的，就好像我以前怎样熬过来　。

这次，我实在很累。

我该留下　？走　？

你们懂吗？我不是多来，可是，情况让我很犹豫。你们不懂 :'C

回宿舍　，　CY 的一句话　，　眼泪流不停　。

进班　，　在一粒面前　，　眼泪又不听话地掉　。　就很自然　。

感觉很没用，不负责任。

另一方面，我不想勉强。这不是我。

我认真地说　：　我需要时间想　。

你们觉得　，我应该怎么样？

- 7/10 -

有活动　，跑步了　，体操　。

蛮不错　。　真的　。　头脑清醒　。

希望今天不会被搞砸　。

我是简单的女生，
想哭就哭。
想笑就大笑。
笑是我的专长，
哭是我的权利。
加油！
好心情会延续的对吗？
面对事实。

Apple - WenYih - CuiCui .

2011-10-04T01:39:00.000+08:00

I found two of them .
I like them .
They're crazy like me .
We can laugh like no-body in public like always .
The good feeling when I talk with them .
Just because , we've same characteristic :)

We even bought the same t-shirt as our uniform LOL !
I like the feel when we three share our story with the true heart . It's warm .

- Apple -
Know what , the first time I saw Apple , she was the type like sanguine , cheerful one .
That's why I've the though like , I want her to be my friend LMAO !
Sounds forcing ? Well nope ! XD
The very first name I name her - 疯婆子 .
Cuz she's like a crazy one LOL !
And yea now , we're good friend right now !

- WenYih -
The very first time I saw her was at the Stadium . HariSukan !
The day before start the first class .
A lot of them said we look alike , I mean our partern , our talking way , and our LOUD speaker !
She's like my clone ! Laugh like nobody !
Who cares ? ! We just don't care !

We three , start a friendship , maybE it's because one thing .
We don't like our own course , and we wanna change to Mass.Com !
How coincidence right ?! FATE !

Appreciate them to the max .
I love you guys . From deepest heart .

- My roommate -
CuiCui

Ta-daaaa ! The girl who sleep with me everynight !
The first though about her .
Sucks ! No joke ! It's SUCKS !
LMAO !
She looked like LC , Quiet someore .
I was like , OMFG , teach me how to live with her for one Sem !
Well , just after few days . My perception all kena buang ! ahahahhahahaha !
We getting closer ! She's actually the type like passive .
And I'm active one, so yeahhh ! Here we start our friendship ! Bath , dinner , talk together !
She's actually talkative ! Crazy with me most of the time !
I can just being my real me in front of her . In room ! LOL !
What F F F F . Ohhh she know I know.
I don't wanna change my roommate !!!

I've them with me .
I love to be with you girls , cuz I can just being myself so relax .

Cherish ! XOXO !

KoonMengFern .

2011-10-03T03:58:00.000+08:00

It's 3.27am .
Having a mood to describe myself right now . LMAO !
Yea NOW .
Something pop-out in my mind suddenly .
They said I'm straight , They said I'm fierce , They said I'm funny humour , They said I'm rude , They said I'm short .

Well , hey guys, FYI , Everyone have various character .
It's depends on you if you want to play a contemptible role , negative or positive character .
Which category I'm concrete in ?
Look at my picture below :

I beam on when I feeling good :

Just show your teeth ! :目
Don't be mean !

Bet everyone have the emotional sometimes !

Bleak when I feel something naughty !

I can be keep quiet if I don't wanna give any damn .

Yup Curious so what ?
Ask when you want to know the answer .
Straight forward .

I know I've wide forehead :S
But am still pin my fringe up .
So what ?
Ugly then ugly . It's me !

I'm straight forward type , So sometimes I'll just scold or shoot you when I'm in piss .
I'm happy go lucky type , I like to hear peoples around LOL .
I'm emotional , I can change my mood very fast , within seconds or minutes .
I'm loud speaker , I know my laughter is loud 99 XD

I'll cry when I'm sad , in mad and in fret .
Well sounds like I mix every feelings in crying category.
Yea that's my express best way .

I made by water . Tears can just roll down easily as it's FOC ? LOL !
I'll scold when I wanna to , whatever if you say I'm rude , sorry , that's me .
I'll express everything out , as I think like , it's suffer to keep .

Just a Simple ordinary girl .
Ask me if you wanna know more about me , don't judge wrongly by just looking at my face thank you ；>

Spending time .

2011-10-03T03:09:00.000+08:00

“Our memories are the only paradise from which we can never be expelled.” - JeanPaulRicher .

Read back previous post , like always , especially when I have leisure time .Once again , cast my thought back to earlier times .Just IDK why , I like to re-read certain month's post . Cuz it's deep memory in my heart . Guess it will never vanish forever ?

Been go thru too much . As every human do . I felt like , huh ! Everything is just like happened yesterday , Just a very JUST . Do you get me ? Had been in UUM for almost 1 month , am going back end of this month soon !Time flying darn fasttttt !

Frankly , I've alot wanna to share .It's all from my mind . But I just DK how .

*Ehem*

I admit , I'm not the best .

I admit , I'm not a genius .

I admit , I'm sucks sometimes .

Feel sooooooo sorry to Joe .

My terrible assignment cause him had to retype .

Take a deep bow . Sorry . Due to my stupid-ness .

1st assignment done :D

Koon Meng Fern ,

please be smart .

Tommy find me to be his personal tutor for certain sub .Well , am finding either .Hey is there anyone willing be my lao shi ? :P

3.06 am . Hollyshit ! Am still awake . Pro max ><

Done !

2011-10-02T23:25:00.001+08:00

A very finally I done my IS assignment !
Happy to max ! At least , release for one or two day ? Huhhh , yea , Uni life isn't easy actually . Degree life ain't an easy game .
Have to say thanks to both of them ,my teammate - Joe ( A guy who look alike 品冠 !) and Lucas ( A guy who look alike Ivory >< ) . Well why ? Why am I change my perception towards my teammate so fast ?

Let me explain all over again , there's 5 of us . I'm the only girl . So 4 males + 1 female !
I was serious mad on them , cuz like no one care of it .
Had meeting with them , discussed . And we had our own job . Just do it .
I can feel that Joe and Lucas are two smart one . No doubt , their idea is work most of the time . So even last minute for them , they can handle well also .
Went to Expo with them after that . We can actually get on well with each other :D
Chit-chat non-stop otw to Expo . Funny + relax .
They said I'm like a short girl who long time never talk and trying to express everything out . LMAO !
Cuz I was keep on talk talk talk XD . But they like it LOL !

Quite close with Joe after that , we text , like inimate old friend . LOL !
We both from SEL !

Just hope , We can get a high mark !
Guess Lucas is editing our work . Xin Ku le ! :)

Just finish my maggi !
I spent too much here man !
Cut cost cut cost !
Cut cost ? It's my supper Grrrr . Am spending actually !
RM 200+ GONE within 4 days :'C !

Alone !

2011-09-30T16:21:00.002+08:00

Dear diary ,

When people utilize you , you have to say thanks . Cuz you learn something , gain new knowledge from it .
When people treat you as a fool , you have to be proud . Cuz they strongly believe that you can do it all alone success-fully .

Nahhh ! This's what I get .

Discussed to have a meet today to discuss the assignment with Steve , Goodjob , He was there .
Another GoodJob , he didn't help me in anything . Last GoodJob , he went back after half hour I think , so-call he was SLEEPY !
WTF ! * ROAR *

So what's the point to ask me go library ? What's the point for me if you don't know anything and keep crapping and showing me all the trash info which doesnt related ?

Bet my Statistics sure screw up .
F ! Don't mess with my mark !

Just wanna settle my IS assignment so far . You ! You ! You and YOU ! ~~BugOff !~~

Unexpected .

2011-09-29T14:45:00.001+08:00

Well , FYI , I suppose had a presentation today . And coz of timing problem , we didn't do it . There's too many groups rush to fore LOL . So yea .

Yong helped me to find out all the points , and too bad , teacher want us to perform it after 3 months .

Finished class is love !
Overcome problem is superb !

And I wrote about hotel reservation system . Gosh It's imposibble mission for me to build up a hotel ?
So F.I.N.E . Think another point on the spot .

Ohyea , the gang . Boys gang . I'm the only girl in the gang .
You know what , There're only few chinese boy in our class and they're with me (Part of ) LMAO !! Okay back to what I wanted to bring out .
One of the handsome , I don't know their name yet even tho we talked alot XD
He gave me another idea , and we elaborated together . I was happy that , huiseh , You know how to answer :D No doubt , he's smart one . Can guess . Hope we can cooperate well for the following assignment !
Sorry to the girls , I left .

FML .

2011-09-29T03:11:00.001+08:00

FYI , I've bunch of Rubbish teamate .
Not I want to insulting them , but , seriously FUCKOFF !
None of them concern the assignement ? None of them care of the mark ? None of them know what's the lecture want ? WTF ! Do you guys understand ENG ?!
Was join the girls gangs , sucks .
Joining the other gang .WTF .

Just I don't fucking understand why . Why am I always join with those who don't do their homework ?
Since when I become so hardworking and active ? Well , just because , I wan to get 4 flat !
I want my parents proud of me . But these idiots like going to spoil my plan ! F it !
Am not trying to shirk responsibility but helo ! It's a ~~group~~ assignment , ~~group~~ task and ~~group~~ project right !?
Am emphasize the word - GROUP !!!

Teach me how to complete a assignment since I'm the only one who do it all up .
Teach me how to finish the project alone within 3 months .
Teach me what should I do to screw you all up !

FML !
I even stress until Cried in front of Apple and WenYih . They always be with me .
How ashame I cried at the MISC canteen . Pairssss of eyes looked at me .
WTF Why am I sooooooo stupid ?
WTF Why am I sooooooo weak ?
WTF Why am I sooooooo useless ?

IDK what else I left behind .
IDK what else I havent done yet .
There's too much for me to arrange .
This cal UNI life . Which people says , It's most memoriable period .
Oh Shit , I can't feel the nice ambi- yet . Sorry to say that .

Especially thanks to Yong . Like always , he helped me to think lots of points !
Thanks god , I've him for help .
Thanks senior JiaWei as well , the refrence he gave might help :D

Feeling good when you need help and there's someone offering the help you need so badly !

Slacking off .

2011-09-27T16:55:00.000+08:00

Dear diary ,

Slacking off !
Get a drink for yourself !
Chillllll :D

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It's ~~TUE~~ ! I love Tue and Fri the most . Just you know why ?
I've no class for these two days ! But of course , I didn't waste my day :D
Watched the 'Accepted ' . Well am not scrimshank okay ? But it's for my multimedia assignment .
Sounds great or more to weird ? Watch movie for an assignment ? Yea no doubt !

Have the strong mood to study right now after a long slack for today .
So Helo my books :D
Shit you Assignment :C

Tired .

2011-09-26T18:41:00.000+08:00

I just don't know why . I wasn't in my mood for the whole day .
Sleepy for the whole day , is it due to I slept at 3 something ytd night ? I found that , I'm getting old :C
No more young spirit man ! Grrrr...

Couldn't concentrate in class . Didn't get what lecture said at all . And damn . Lecture gave a boom quiz today , but why today !? Choose a day which I'm not in good condition ? What's a good lotery huh ? Always concentrate in her class before , but not in this once :C
Okie , face it . Just a small test . Doesn't matter .
Consoling myself ?

Met up with Yong again since we both had to wait till 3.30pm to enter DKG 3 . His senior kept on played us about relationship , well . No comment . Didn't play crazy with him , didn't debate much , just because I WAS TIRED and I AM TIRED .

Multimedia dudes and babes , screw Multimedia up !!

Long hair VS Short hair .

2011-09-25T22:22:00.000+08:00

IDK wth to the photos .
Well lazy to rotate .
I miss longish hair .:C

3 Idiots .

2011-09-25T03:09:00.000+08:00

My current status - Hungry-ing . Grrrr . Gastric ,

And I got 2 calls . From Yong and Kraven .
Sweet them , order me this and that . Hahahaha ! They make me smile and laugh C:
From deepest heart .

Get the 3 idiots movie from KhangSheng (:
Touching , funny ,educational and meaningfull one .
5 STARS !

It's Sun .
Done my essay . and I found that my post is just all about STUDY LIFE .

Getting bored . lol .

Touching .

2011-09-24T03:18:00.001+08:00

Dear Diary ,

Thanks the someone .

Thanks for everything :D !
Thanks for accompany for the always .
Thanks for your time on me .
Thanks for your helpfull one .
Thanks for your kindly heart and tolerate .

766th post .

2011-09-24T03:09:00.000+08:00

Stupid one C:

It's my 766th post !

If I can , I would like to rest my eyes : <

Sore Throat warring me ~~not~~ to talk so much ?
Restthroataswell .

You know , am not a smart girl , so hardworking will do .
But too bad that , I wasn't so that hardworking . Said : do revision , but I found that I still on the page and chapter . I wasted most of time in chat , facebook and skype . Gosh grrrrr !!

Got no idea why the photo comes in messy way ! ~~STUPID MAX~~ !

Assignment .

2011-09-22T13:52:00.001+08:00

A very finally , I understand how they feel like right now .
The stress , rush . Grrrr : |
Gonna put more effort on study start from now . Real study life starting !

Sorry to say that , sorry girls , am not going to same group with you girl anymore since you girls never pay attention and responsible in my group discussion . It's more like individual tho ' . Sorry bye . I can see human clear .

Had lunch with Yong again :D Thank for teman again C: !
So appreciate , cuz everytime when I'm alone , he'll be with me . Just mayb he was alone also at the same time ? LMAO ;D . You know it's no good to judge people like this ! Nooo..ahahahaha !

Cheer that was not alone .
Cheer that my lazy choice is correct to not to go DKG 6 since my friend can't find out the room also . !

Stupid expression that I HAVE ALOT OF ~~ASSIGNMENT~~ !
WTF ! *ROAR*

Same background as last time ?
Oh yea ! Bleakk !

Am now in hostel ! Have class at 3.30pm later :C

Distraction .

2011-09-21T02:53:00.000+08:00

Done my STID 1113 note and revision .
Tmr have to get ready to give opinion and idea for my coursemate . Gonna have group discussion tmr for thursday's presentation .
Was actually can finish note within one hour but I wasted lot of time on facebook yea .
Sucks Mifen :S

It's 2.51am now . It's time to sleep yea .
Nights world .
Tiring day .

Facebook always the distraction .

BSN-Be Stong Newbie .

2011-09-21T02:05:00.000+08:00

Attended the orientation - it's for only BSN's chinese . Sound great cuz it's fun when all chinese gather together .
Saw Khang Sheng there C:
Well , what I wanna say is - The main point - I actually cried in front 150 . Had sharing section for last before the orientation end . They switched off the light .
The yuhua senior called my name suddenly .
IDK him before this , but he actually can call my name out : Who's from kajang here? MeiFen?
Well yea my name is ming fen okie ? LOL . So hand up and he passed the mike for me . Stand .

:" The food and toilet here are just so sucks for me . Sick for almost one week more and just back from hospital today .
I still can remember that the first day school . I lost my way and I lost for5 hours , luckily KhangSheng with me that time ( * was pointed to him for few seconds ) , he taught me all the way . Thanks .

And I started to shed Awwwwwwww :'C Malu ! 150 and more looking at me . Thanks god the light was switched off . Can't see me clearly bah ? Senior passed me a tisu C:
Just IDK why I cried . Homesick .

All of the senior are just so nice . No doubt , every of them helped me alot when I need them . Appreciate to the MAX ! * Loves * ♥ That's why I always think that UUM's senior is the best .

I found that I cried too much these few days ? Texting with Mathew like usual . And told him was crying again . He lectured me and he said he hate people keep crying .
Awwww ! Hurted no doubt .
But I know , it's his style . Understand .
I hate myself as well . Will try to be strong . Will make my Uni life going more colorful !

Hospital .

2011-09-20T16:55:00.000+08:00

Back from hospital .
Huge one . Thanks again to Yong C: .
Sweet him accompany me to go to hospital after his class . He look just so tired but he was with me still .
And he even didn't take his lunch yet .
OMG seriously Thanks !
Was blur about the hospital system and luckily I got him beside . He settled everything for me C:

3 packs of Med , 2 bottles of oral hygeine . :S

Busy Uni life . Gonna do revision tonight if I'm in good condition as tmr hv to do group discussion with the coursemate :C Piss off that they can' live without me ?
F ! IDK why I've such coursemate .
And IDK why I must same group with them .
And IDK why , is it all multimedia fella just same like this ?
Noob one . Am not insulting or look down . Just hey use brain .
Seriously we from diff character . Bu Ngam !!

Kraven called . Followed by Ivan . C:
Warm regard from them . Am okie , just went to sick for Doc !
Sweett you guys .
Sometimes , those who not really close with me , but they're the one who concern me the most .
It's warm .
Wondering if Darren will call me and sing for me tonight again ?
Love songs ! I love it .
Yuan lai , when I having insomia , I can call him to sing for me C:

C;

2011-09-20T01:15:00.000+08:00

Having fever AGAIN . I got no idea why am I so easy to get sick here .
Thanks to YongChunKwan . He accompanied me in noon for hours since we both have no class at the time . Thanks that he bought me a bottle of water since I finished my water to take Panadol . Thanks he sent me his Panadol . Warm C;

Lot of them though we're couple . LOL Does we look like ? Wondering . He's a nice one . Thankss a lot . He'll be with me when I was alone . He accompanied me went to ChangLun last Sun . Yea just we both , sweet him and kind one ! He actually ffk his friend to teman me ! Kantoi ! Just we know and meet each other in UUM and we getting closer . We were like super close friend AND we chat-ed about 3 hours more for the first time meet . How brave he was . He came alone to meet me and WenYih . Haha Funny !

And cried to him just now . My necklace break off suddenly and I was shocked how it happend since it's quite rough . Called mum and dad immediately , to as if they're okie . Just had unwell feel . Call it ~~Ominious~~ . It was like sucks ! Cried non-stop after talked with parents . Miss them to the max :'C
Yong called . So just cried . Felt better after that . No doubt . Was like about to collapse . Crazy me cried alone in the park . Malu !

Thanks to Darren . Called and consoled . His call make me awake and so yea , am typing blog here lol . *Tired suffer tho*
He sang ! Sweet guy ! Love you Gay !

I felt grateful that everyone is beside me , everyone who around me is protecting me , everyone I can feel the warm from it . Thank you . With my deepest heart .
You guys color up my days here .